Do people actually use blogger anymore?
I remember when I used to post every day, and If I took some time off people wondered where I was. I rember heated arguments, many of which were "lost" in the comments sections after republishing the blog.It seems like a lot of stuff ended up missing or deleted or whatever. I also remember that stupid "Life at TJ's" blog. That Kevin guy would write some stupid crap like " today I got a haircut from a woman. She was a beautiful woman. I always wanted to have sex with the woman who cuts my hair. Today I played golf. I work in a strip club. There is a really tough guy who works there. " then you'd see like 4000 comments form ignorant teens or whatever saying "oh my god Kevin you are the world's best writer, I feel so much like I'm there, I feel the passion of your vivid beautiful world you create in such eloquient writing". Then disaster struck. Kevin disapeared... then all these idiots were forming suicide pacts. There were hundreds of "where's Kevin" theories, people claiming they were family members and that he had died, people were looking at his blog for secret messages. Then you had the so called "Kevin experts" who in some kind of stupid assed CSI fashion suposedly found where Kevin grew up and where he worked. The thing is I doubt you could get that kind of passion from blogger people today. Even our good friend Barrie shut down or deleted "the pink bee" then still hasn't shown on her "alternate blog" for a while. They even shut down the audio blogger service. I used the hell out of that one for a while.Used to be the asian girls were all on Xanga. I learned that from some Vietnamese employees of mine who had blogs up at Xanga. Now it's all "my space" and "u tube" . I wonder if anyone reads this stuff. I had a lot of things up over time, wrote a lot of opinionated stuff that "defines" where I am at the time. Things are definitely different but still the same. Dealing with the same things differently or just trying to be comfortable with the things that aren't going the way you wished is a form of change. It just doesn't seem like change when you look out the window and it's the same scenery. But then you go back and read things you wrote or look at old pictures and then you start to notice things are different. Like getting older. You never seem to notice getting older until your thirties, and then it's from looking at a picture one day and seeing somthing you really can't explain. You just look different. You can't explain what it is. Were you happier? What is it that looks different. Maybe you look better in some ways. I know when I started this blog I was doing somthing that made me feel "not like myself". I was dropping 50 lbs. I was 235 lbs, 5'9'' but I had never quit lifting weights. I just started to feel as if I was getting a little too "bulky". I had the build of a powerlifter rather than a bodybuilder, a little bit of fat coming on but no so called "gut". I deicded I wanted to look like a male stripper. I dropped weight but then I went under 200, felt like crap , lost way too much muscle mass, and still never got that perfect "six pack" like I wanted. I had no love handles, a flat stomach, had those "lines" on both sides of the abs, but never the "look". I look at pictures I posted when I was 185 and even though I was in good shape and had good muscle tone, I just felt like it wasn't me. I posted this story before, but the point is I can look at pics from those two years I was "under 200" and tell I wasn't feeling good. I wrote about 85 percent of this blog during my "skinny" phase. Sometimes it's like I was a different person. Another thing I thought about was how I actually quit carrying a gun for about a year. Right after I left the club business. I always carried a gun. I had been shot at before , my life threatened before, and I never went anywhere without a gun or "guns". Guns were part of my identity. People knew me for my gun knowledge. SO here I am , not running a club, not carrying a gun, 50 lbs lighter. It just wasn't me. But I had to take a break from "me" . Part of it was a forced break. At least the part where I ended up without a business to run. I hadn't done a 40 hour job for years. It was all 12 hours or more all those years. Then your phone rings off the hook with questions or personal situations or whatever. I remember how the phone just got quiet one day. Now is another period. I'm back to my comfortable size. Well not as big but a little over 200 lbs and still working out 5 hours a week. My fathers work has slowed to the point I'm doing remodelling or staying home during the day. I've had more time off than I ever did in my life. It's starting to not feel like me again. Sometimes I feel useless. I worked hard my whole life. Always put in an honest day's work and then some. But now it seems people who excel in any workplace are better at selling themselves or playing politics than working. It seems to me hard work is a concept that's looked at as "old school" , Everyone is so focused on doing less work and getting more back. People who are motivated to do everything that needs to be done are used and mocked nowdays it seems. Guys who get everyone else to do it for them are getting the attention at the workplace. Guys who couldn't do the job themselves. Even happening at my fathers business. I was the guy who could handle all the trouble shooting, do all the insane shit that no one wanted to handle. He hired a lot of new guys, and one guy ended up being put "in charge" of the crew. I just ran jobs before, did what I had to do. Got it done. Now we got a guy who is good but he relies more on the others to accomplish his goals. My father can do it all, and is self reliant. I was raised that way. Yet the guys running stuff nowdays can't get it done unless conditions are met. They have to have the "right help" the "right situation" etc. and in optimal conditions they perform. And it seems those types of guys get the optimal conditions they require and get to shine. OK I understand this is a great way to do things. But what about when things go wrong? When conditions are less than perfect, then these types are the first to blame or bitch. Then guys like me who can handle it all are needed. I guess people with my mindset are mostly the guys owning the businesses. Most of my friends are business owners. Or they're in charge where they work. My problem is I got screwed when it was "my time". So now I'm just a guy who knows too much to be where I am. I'm smart and talented but I have no outlet. I have this constant desire to be "good at" somthing new. I feel like by now I should own my own business. All the money I put away, all my investments and money put into the club industry or money I had to invest ended up burnned away from divorce, dishonest partners , and just general bad luck. I never stopped working hard. I tried to "make my own luck" but I'm not good at it. Making the kind of luck I need always required a form of dishonestly I didn't feel comfortable with. When I could have taken a short road with a dishonest deal I decided "hard work" would compensate for the fact I wasn't going to do things the wrong way. Now I see so many people who cheated just a little bit here or there and still going strong. My father has what he does from hard work. He's a workaholic. But he also took a lot of shortcuts in beginning. He worked hard but had to do a little dirt here and there to make his hard work pay off. I've doen my share of "wrongs" in life. Just never anything big enough to take it to the next level. I think I'd be OK with where I am if I just knew how to play politics like a lot of people in the workplace. But I know no matter what I do I end up being the same in any work environment. 1) used up and worked hard 2) I make the guy above me look good, not myself 3) blamed when somthing goes wrong because hey, if you don't do anything you can't make a mistake can you? Then I hear these fucks saying shit about my "attitude may be bad" or I may be "burned out" when I get discouraged from not moving up. I do all the damn work, and then I get judged. All that shit is is a way for the man above you to explain why "he's the boss and you are where you are". I was the boss be default. Every time I was running shit it was mostly because no one wanted the job at the time because it required a leader who could "handle a crisis themselves". Which most so called leaders can't. They can win a popularity contest any day. Every time I was ever put in charge of anything it was when the place was in trouble. When I was a Platinum, for example it had gone down to under 15 girls and was dying. I moved back up the chain of command ONLY because the sorry ass before me finally took so much money from the place he just had to be let go. He should have never got the damn GM job to start with. He was a lazy, ignorant theif with a gambling addiction that was obvious to a 5 year old. He got the job over me for about six months. I continued to do all the work. The bookings, the advertising , the only thing he wanted to do is "check the books" after I turned in the money. He re did all the paperwork at home and I'd be at the club dealing with bullshit. He'd come in long enough to start a fight, of fire someone he didn't like, or run off business. Even though I was doing all the work, he would override anything positive I tried to do. Finally money got so bad , we were a joke, he had to go. No one wanted the job. So I finally got a chance, built us up to around 46 + girls, brought it all up and then what happens? Another "popularity contest" begins and when I have the place "running itself" everyone else wants in. Seven years wasted for nothing. Same scenario everywhere else too. I brought business up in a lot of locations and when it gets rolling I get thrown out. I had dreams of actually getting enough cash up to "buy in" or start my own place but before I can get my foot in the door the scavengers come in. I've never gotten past a 20 percent interest in any business except my website program I used to do. I owned 100 percent of that one. Then trouble with the server, heavy competiton, and I didn't have the thousands required to "stay competitive" in the market. So I sold out to a bigger company and used the money in my savings for my "new business". One disaster after another followed and I ended up without enough money again. I guess the only job for me is a job where conditions are always so bad that I can always have a place because I'm a "crisis manager". When I came back to work for my father, he had heart surgery, a bunch of employees that quit and was in a panic. I stayed with him the whole time, we had a group of guys quit and take some contractors, we had all kinds of hard times. My brother was screwing the business up too. I put up with all that crap day in and day out. Now dad has a reliable crew. I guess I'm not important on the job as I was because thee is no crisis. I want to be around for the "goods times" too. I gets me down that whenever work conditions are smooth, I end up not being needed as much. MY dad had a problem with a home owner last week so he calls me and says he needs me to handle their warranty situation. SO I guess his "good crew" can't be bothered with difficult sitautions. I remember I once worked for a printing company for dupont, and they treated me like shit. One day they bulit this machine no one wanted to run because it was so fast and the work was non stop. And to top it off the machine was a prototype, one of a kind that was computer controlled.The thing broke down or malfunctioned constantly. But when it worked it put out a hell of a lot of product. I ended up with that job, and all the undisreable employees to boot. They gave me all the people no one wanted to work with. Mostly those "militant black" types, those black people who hate white people, sneer and joke and snicker at them as if they are making fun of a "slave master" they hate. People who say "fuck you, that ain't my job" all the time. Well guess what? I ended up out producing the whole damn factory. And that's no lie. People who know me from there read this blog and know how true this is. But since every other operator couldn't fix the machine when it broke down, they started blaming me for "producing too much". Like I overworked the machine. I had the company record for product. I was doing 3 to 4 times what the other two shifts were. What thanks did I get? The machine was scrapped after about a year, I ended up with an opportunity to learn the printing business because I got transferred. But they entrusted a kiss ass who made supervisor ( who never produced shit as a worker) to find a way to get rid of me because they were paying me too much to be in training again. All the money I made them wasn't good enough for a measly extra forty or so dollars a week extra I was still getting for operator pay. They didn't demote me, my machine was shut down. So they bean counted me out, blamed it on my second job at the club. Another "victory" for hard work I guess. Maybe one day I'll be needed somewhere. I'm sure someone is screwing somthing up right now for me to deal with. Maybe I just won't fix the problem next time. Do you guys honestly think that Bush would have been re elected if the country was in good shape? He got to keep his job four more years because things were screwed up. Just like the Reagan years. The only time a presidient lost the country when it was really fucked was Jimmy Carter, because he fucked it up way too much. And Clinton won the "popularity contest" after Reagan /Bush senior fixed Carter's mess. Yet we have 8 terrorist attacks against us, the stock market bottoms out, building slows, unemployment rates way higher than now, interest rates are high, taxes are high, but Clinton stayed "popular" so no one noticed. Bush comes in,has eight months in office, it all catches up to us and now these idiots blame him. If the country is "fixed" after Bush they'll just elect a democrat to take credit and win the next popularity contest. They'll help our enemies become stronger and bog us down with "pollitical correctness" shit, and do stupid shit like Clinton did giving Iran and North Korea shit to make nukes with during his administration. As far as Clinton helping Iran and N. Korea, this is a FACT, not a conspiracy theory. A well known policy that only a few people bring up. Yet look who's stuck dealing with it? And people wonder why guys like me identify with Bush. Anyway I guess that's enough for today folks. Think about it and have a great day...
Fuck Madonna and Angelina...
I'm so sick of these silly ass liberal cunts wandering off to "praise Africa" all the fucking time. Never an argument against the Africans killing Africans, unless some South African white person shoots a black guy after the savage set his farm on fire and gutted his children. These liberal celeberties are so in love with themselves they secretly begin to wallow in self hate. Then they have to reach out to anything black , brown or any entity that wants the destruction of the entire white male race. The commercial about Dafur makes me sick. "how will they judge us" it says. Well even if Bush went over there and gave them each a million dollar check, a gold manision and licked their asses clean they'd still have someone telling us it's the white man's fault and even if we all gave them all that and dropped down and commited suicide it wouldn't be enough for them. Even if after the suicide we were in the worst possible circle of hell. No we'd have to give them our souls, build a time machine and never know anything but suffering form the moment of our conception. The point is no matter what we do , these people will keep on killing each other and keep expecting the white devil evil crackers to bail them out. But Madonna just feels a warm feeling in her cunt because she saved a "black baby" and forced her totally incorrect perverted version of the Kaballah on a bunch of people. There is a price, see. Madonna has so fantasy deep down she can go to a third world country and be made into a god on a throne. Why do you think she has all these greased down gay black and latin men dancing around in her videos? He fantasy world of ruling a bunch of ignorant well hung savages. I think I should start a tourism business that allows pregnant white women to go over to Africa and drop their kids right out on the ground-the precious "soil of Africa". Let them stand up and squeeze the baby right down into the dirt, hanging by the umbillica cord. Just like some of those starving refugee women they used to show standing up dropping a baby out like an animal. Maybe that will help them lose some of their "white guilt". This whole world is fucking sick with this shit. Madonna has a pet. Many young girls here will follow suit, having their own little "african kings" here.They'll get knocked up by the nearest "african" they can find, usually a shiftless so called "thug" or other worthless entity. After the kid is born, the birth father will probably be about as accessable as the the birth father of Madonna's new pet. White kids , asian kids, all these children don't matter in the liberal world. They don't ease the "guilt" of how bad we've supposedly treated the black folks. Meanwhile I never owned a slave, never mistreated a black person but they've sure given me a lot of shit. My ancestors never owned slaves either. Yet everyone keeps on hiding behind that "racist" bullshit every time someone brings up how ignorant it is to keep on forcing people to "feel sorry" for the "victims of the white man." How much longer are we supposed to pay for shit that went on 120 fucking years ago? Think about that and have a great day.
If you're a white working class person in America there is no reason not to vote!!!
I'm sick of hearing these white trash idiots talking the same old shit about the mexicans, the blacks, the gays, the high taxes, yet they don't vote on any issues because they same some lame assed "politicians are all the same anyway" etc. shit. White Americans have to pay most of the taxes in our country, that's no racism it's a statistical and easily provable fact, just like the "black leaders" constantly quote stats on how many of their people are prisons and how there must be a conspiracy from the white devils. It's black and white Americans who are losing jobs due to illegal immigration. We suffer the most. Yet most black Americans statistically vote for those who want open borders. Funny how the scare tactics they dems used in the last election still work. Republicans won.No one lost their welfare, or their social security, yet so many people vote just on those fears. There are a SHITLOAD of single moms here who have EBT cards.These are food stamp "credit cards" with an additional cash allotment from the state (about 200 bucks per "baby daddy) plus tax free food purchases that are usually around 350-500 dollars worth of food a month. When I was voting, these idiots are always there in the parking lot telling the black single moms Bush is going to "take their EBT" . DO the dems really want education? Because uneducated people and ignorant people will fall for any bullshit the news puts out to screw the republicans. No dems only want education they CONTROL, media they CONTROL. They already run the college system. The professors are mostly liberal, that's a well known fact. Dems hate fox news because it's not all one sided Bush hating. Yet I see many many liberals, democrats and "progressives" every night on fox being allowed to state their opinions. When's the last time you saw a conservative or alternate view on the other news? How can any sane person say fox is stricltly conservative, when I see so many liberal views every night? It's just that we're only supposed to hear one voice, the liberal/progressive/democrat pro Clinton pro Sorros pro Howard Dean over and over again. Sure the Republicans make mistakes, but the Democrats make me sick trying to campaign in black churches and make themselves look like they are the friend of religeous freedom all while voting for anything against the word "God" anywhere. Or saying they are for "hunting rights" when their agenda is banning all personal weapons- after all they do say the second amendment refers to the military or police , they never say there is a "hunting clause" in the second amendment, so why would they support hunters keeping weapons? This is a lie to get the so called "red neck" vote. They think rednecks have rifle racks and shotguns and don't favor handguns so it's a way to "win them over". Liberals are so out of touch with what's really going on in the south they have no idea. What about Chris Matthews on Hardball "what would these people sitting around in a roadhouse in Tennessee smoking cigarettes think about thr racist commercial blah blah... " this is he same bullshit that most liberals think. Put these libs out on the crime ridden street they've created in their gun control utopias and let them get mugged and treated like shit and then feel sorrow for the minorities trying to kill them because they're "victims" of the evil white man. These people are not livig in reality, they're seperated from it. Studies show the richer you are, the more likeley you are to be a LIBERAL.... yes folks that's the real story. Most rich, disconnected from reality people are liberals. Look at all the Hollywood trash. Ignorant self absorbed idiots all thinking they can kiss ass with Africa and say fuck the USA and it makes them a "humaitarian". If they really wanted to make a difference in Africa, it would be to create pollitical pressure on the BLACK AFRICAN WARLORDS who are causing all this shit. It's not Bush's fault some savages want to kill and starve out their own people. I guess these African warlords are no different from the Hollywood trash that are for killing their own here in the USA to benifit themselves and their rich communist friends. Hollywood people love making a fortune off ultraviolent movies , and glorifying gun violence. And also have no problem doing the drugs that arm the criminals. Yet they want to disarm the citizens. If everyone in the entire entertainment industry quit using and purchasing all drugs and refused to put guns in any of their films then maybe they'd have an argument. Why aren't they fighting to disarm the drug selling African militias that are doing the killing? If you're in Hollywood and use drugs then you're JUST AS BIG A PART OF THE PROBLEM , so shut your fucking mouth. Why is the president resposible for everything that happens in Africa, yet these drug using drug glorifying Hollywood /entertainment industry people not responsible for the killing that goes on EVERY SECOND in OUR COUNTRY due to the glorification of drugs and the drug lifestyle? How can any sane person vote for a pollitical party that's loved by these types of idiots? Think about it...and have a great day...
This idiot wins an MTV award in Europe, then crashes someone else's award for best video whining about why "he should have won". All these stupid ass magazeines that embraced him as this "intellegent articulate black man" can all go to hell now. I was right , once again. Shows you the class and "intellegence" level of the average anti-Bush idiots. I haven't written a lot lateley, because the politics are so heave there's no point in me getting all pissed off at the stupidiy. SO here's my opinion on a few current events and then I'll go. 1) Mark Foley- so he's a faggot. I thought the dems were all "pro gay". And George Sorros is ass kissing with these countries that want to drop the age of consent for a young boy to fuck a grown man to 12 years old. The dems back the ACLU, which defends the boy man love association. So what the fuck are they bitching about? Just make Foley a fucking democrat because he seems to believe in what they are into nowdays. 2) Micheal J. Fox. I don't give a fuck if he's acting or not. He's lying about the whole stem cell research issue. Stem cell reserach is legal and funded, just not that particular type of embryonic stem cell research that involves cloning. And when this is brought up all the dems ever say is so misleading crap to try and pretend it's not true but can't give details. They just go into more anti Bush crap because they know that most democrats are too lazy to give a fuck about details. 3) John Kerry and his statement. What's so different about what he says about the troops now and what he said years ago when he called them baby killers etc.? He is a bitch who has distain for the military.He's backed by Sorros who like those idiots in San Fransisco think we should have no military at all. The liberals are into some star trek type governent with no military. Study the shit that's been proposed , look at these hardcore libs saying things about how we shouldn't have a military and have open borders.There are a lot of anti military people in San Francisco who are not shy about actually saying America is bad because we have a military. That's the people who had the army recruters removed and closed down monuments.Deep down these politicians are trying to play into that hardcore base while pretending to be moderate or conservative. And as far as the joke things goes, it's obvious it wasn't a joke. And if it was about Bush, he went to Harvard so I guess Kerry doesn't count Harvard as an education. Wake up people. Democrats are against religeon, every ACLU case out there is on the other side of the subject. The dems back ever anti religeon legislation out there. Gay marriage and gay rights violate all major religeous teachings, muslim , jew, buddist, christian, etc. They think a "seperation of church and state" means somthing different than it meant to the people who founded the country. These same founding fathers but "in God we trust" on the money , and laws were based on christian values. The seperation thing was so the state didn't recognize or endorse a particular denomination, like the baptists or the catholic church. It's obvious because if they truly wanted a totally Godless based country they wouldn't have used the word God in so many documents and engrained it so much in our system.The dems have no problem looking at specifics when it comes to gun control. Another "re writing of history" they say the founding fathers only wanted the military to have guns. Why didn't anyone every start taking them away then? Plenty of countries supposedly took everyones guns according to Micheal Moore and the liberals.The reason this didn't happen is that that wasn't the intention of the founders of our country. They wanted men to be free to defend themselves and their country. Then they want less and less punishment for drug dealers. Ever time there's a drug dealer with a so called "unfair" sentence, the liberals are lining up to help them. George Sorros wants to decriminalize drugs.He's all for total legalization. Dems don't beleive in the death penalty. Time after time they've back legislation to lower the punishment of criminals. Let's look at the real reason this stuff started in the first place. No one said shit about gun control, gays, drug legalization, etc. until after the 60's. Why? because the hippies and druggies were protesting Vietnam, running to Canada, and becoming pacifists who thought guns were bad. They also thought drugs were good, and a right everyone should have. There was a drug revolution in America. Then these people of course grew up in a culture that loved drugs, so they felt sorry for the dope man. They identified with him. Then psychiatry was created to explain all ellicit behavior that came from the drug glory days . People doing drugs and having "free love" and living a carless life created a lot of crazy shit in society. Psychiatry makes everything into a disease that's out of the person's control. Drug addiction is no longer the fault of the person taking the drugs. The "free love" and sexual experimentation caused people to identify with gays , and molesters were explained away by the shrinks.Aborition wasn't an issue until all these women who were fucking around in the "free love" years were getting unwanted pregnancies. Then the dems started more and more give aways to minorities , even though most dems voted against laws helping the black man to have rights back in the 60's. The feel they own the minority vote because they control the system that so many minorities rely on to live. They used the welfare system to gain power.Bill Clinton came to us with "pollitical correctness" while kissing ass with the growing drug epidemic that came from their glorious welfare programs. The democrats are for high taxes to fund their "social programs". These programs are under their control , which makes them more powerful and the average person less powerful over their destiny. The dems are endorsed by socilaists and communists world wide. They are against capitalism. Any hardcore college student today is being taught these values which include talking about and studying how bad capitalism is and how socialism is better. Why? The hippies, if you remember were about communal living and socialism. Their "pretend" socialism seemed great when they were living in one crowded house, sharing the dope. They still had all the rights and privelges of our capitalist society.They couldn't handle true communism or socialism. That 's also the reason the democrats today are so in love with Fidel Castro, or speak of how great the socialsm spereading through Europe is so great.Anyone who questions the machine is made into a racist or whatever by the "pollitical correctness" trap the democrats invented to shut anyone up who doensn't believe what they do.The democrats today are not the same party after the 60's.It's the dems right to be what they want. They should just quit packaging themselves as somthing else. Have the courage to admit you're for the agnostic, the atheiest, the child molester, the drug dealer, the murder, and against capitalism. If they simply presented their views, only the hardcore and brainwashed college kids with no life experience would vote for them. Let these college kids experience socialism now. Take fifty percent of their spending money and take their credit cards and see how they love socialism now. Democrats take advantage of the loyalty to the party they used to be, the uneducated and the welfare recipient. They scare old people that's they'll lose their social security. Even thought Bush or the Republicans haven't taken it. They scare minorities they'll lose their welfare. Has Bush taken that ? They paint the Republican party as the party of the rich. Yet do you honestly think the democrats are all middle classed hard working people? All polititians are rich. You have to be rich to be in politics. The so called "tax cuts for the rich" are bullshit. I am not rich and I'm benefitting from these tax cuts. Liberals and "progressives" think all rich people should't have over 15 million dollars, and their money above this should be taken by the governement. They want to take 60 percent of their income. (or more). Yet many promininent democrats have their money in other countries , like George Sorros , to avoid taxes. Rich people still pay a way larger percentage than anyone else in this country. It's just a fact. They pay way higher tax rates. If you don't understand this you're either just a jealous person or actually believe all this socialist crap. Do you honestly think the rich don't pay a higher percentage of their income than a lower income person? And without the rich there are no businesses for everyone else. That's how capitalism works. Everyone is not equal as far as income goes. This could be due to hard work or just being born with it. That's just life. Some people are better looking than you, some people have more money, some people have more advantages. If you're not attractive enough then do the best with what you have or get plastic surgery.If you want more money work and do what you can but even then it may not happen for you. Be happy if you're able to eat well and pay your bills and take care of your family.If you can't accept life as it is then move to a communist or socialist country. Then you can see the failures of these so called "utopias" . The problem is , colleges are teaching these kids today all this garbage that won't fly in the real word. They try to push the pollitical correctness and affermative action crap but in the long run the realities of capitalism will kick in.The world is not fair. Just ask Kanye West... Think about that. Have a great day...
