Stuff on my mind part 3

Hey well I guess I am going to write some more about death. But this is about a sadder subject. Young women who passed in the industry. A lot of people heard about how porn star Savanna had a car accident and had cut her face. Then she proceeded to the bathtub and shot herself in the head. But the worst thing about this was the way the adult industry reacted. Like when Screw magazeine made a subscription ad with Savanna's eyes x'ed out . The ad said somthing like "don't kill yourself , subscribe...etc. " then they also had a headline that said "Ding Dong the Bitch is Dead". This is the stupid shit the industry does to it's own. I remember how two of my ex wife's friends committed suicide. One girl was a pretty girl named Maria. She went into the house and shot herself as well. She had just had an argument with her boyfriend. My ex wife bragged about how "she had introduced Maria to heroin". She was reportedly using drugs when she died. She was a well know dancer for years. Then a few months later, another girl my ex wife used heroin with named Nikki actually hung herself. She was a tall pretty blonde girl who used to go out with one of my best friends and co owner of Menages club, Shawn. Both times all the hell you heard was shit from other dancers about how "stupid" these girls were, or how much "drug and partying " they had done with them. No one was really sad, except some of the guys who knew them. I knew so many cruel women in the industry, the reactions to deaths and the "so what, she was a stupid bitch" mentality is often more shocking than the death. I once remebered a girl in Boston, who was tricking with some latino gang members after work. Myself , an agent , security guy and another manager knew she was planning on this. We could tell money was going to change hands. This girl was not a girl who was a prostitute , she was a dancer. We used to fire girls suspected of turning tricks. But we actually liked this girl and were shocked she would do this. She was a beautiful girl who never did this kind of thing. But what happened that night is there was a large offer, the customer was attractive as well, so she thought "what the hell" . We begged her not to meet these guys, threatened to fire her, and she said "guys, you know I'm not like that. Well she did meet them ,at the local convenience store where we all got our gas. After work, we haed cops everwhere and as I pulled into the gas station I saw the scene. The girl , named April , was shot in the face by a 12 gauge shotgun as she sat in the gang member's car. A failed drive by from a rival gang. I got so damn sick that day, just thinkng of how a beautiful human face could be splattered into a bloody mess in an instant. The next story is also one that I really hated to see happen. I had a waitress that I had worked with over a 7 year period. She was only 4"3, a "little person" , midget, whatever the term is nowdays. She busted her ass waitressing and bartending. I knew her family. Her brothers. Met her dad. One of her brothers became my DJ, his girlfriend was one of my bartenders. She opened the club I was with at the time . She always stood up to me and anyone else she didn't agree with. One day I told her "girl , money is going to be the death of you." I felt so bad I ever said this. Because about one year after I had left that club, a crazy ghetto bitch I had fired for being trouble had been rehired by the new mangement. She had bought a car from the waitress , and owed her money. They had a fight in the parking lot, and the crazy dancer proceeded to run over the little waitress in the car. She also ran down her brother, and her husband. The waitress didn't survive. The others did, I heard the dancer didn't even get any time out of the deal. This woman was one of the best waitstaff I ever worked with. And her family all relied on her as a leader. She was always there for her brothers. She had kids, it was all so fucking bad. One of the most senseless deaths I have ever seen. One last note on this subject, I have seen a lot more deaths than this, but I don't think I can write about it much longer. I am a hardcore guy but when I see lives wasted for no good reason it brings me to an angry place in my heart I don't want to be. One last note. I remember this friend of an old girlfriend I couldn't stand. She was a hopless addict. She hooked up with this overweight guy who was just glad a pretty girl talked to him. He had drugs. He messed with pot, but becuase of her he got involved with cocaine. She robbed his stash, cheated on him , left him, manipulated him. He was a drug dealer (somthing I am not fond of) but he was really a fat kid just trying to be cool. He committed suicide one day. I'll never forget my ex girlfriend going to the funeral, but the girl he killed himself over just said "fuck that stupid motherfucker.Why should I go to his funeral? If he wants to kill himself that's his problem". This says it all folks. Live .Live right .

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