Grieco Family Inner Circle

I haven't been here in a while.

2009-06-11T20:32:00.003-08:00

I've been writing all my shit on my myspace blog. I just felt shitty today and decided to come here. Tonight got a call from this guy I know, this guy I kind of grew up with named Alex. He's older than me, but he didn't really do much to get into the club industry other than be born into it. He really is an asshole. He had a family business handed to him. So he calls me out of the blue. He told me he just spent a lot of time on the phone with several people I cannot stand. I guess he's trying to do business in Nashville. All I need is one more shit talking bastard around here. He was throwing in my face how certain people must not like me here. Of course he hasn't spoken to all the people I helped. Oh wait a minute, he has! He spoke to all the folks I helped that backstabbed me. Well I hope he deals with them, and they all end up losing. You take a lot of no talent people like that Jeff Gorick, and Shawn "Dinero" who think they're super talented and watch them all have a shitting contest. I see fuckovers galore, and maybe I can come in and pick up the pieces.

I'm depressed...kind of.

2009-01-12T19:59:00.003-09:00

I have just not been feeling like me as of late. I just want to do better financialy. I hate getting old without being rich. It sucks. Today I watched a old video I filmed when I was 15. I realized something.Before I get ahead of myself let me give you the background.

Now I've written this story on my myspace blog, but I felt a different kind of angle on the story today. I See years ago I was made to go to church camp. Everyone hated me there. Then one year a pretty Italian girl payed me attention. She was attractive, but it wasn't just that. I liked the fact she was interested in ME. We talked. We had things in common.I totally felt like all the pain I had felt , the lack of friends, this could come to an end if I played my cards right. I had to find a way to stand out. To be "special". In charge of something. My dad loved technology. Even when we were broke, he always ended up getting a hold of cool shit. Stuff no one else had in the neighborhood. He used to spend a lot of time in Italy and the Phillipines. He brought back stuff like reel to reel tape recorders and super 8 movie cameras. So when VHS video cameras came out he had one. And I mastered using it. So he actually brought it down to the camp and let me film all the activities. Of course I had to film my "girl" doing her thing. This made me kind of "special". People had to know I was around because I was filming all the activity. I filmed people doing all the boating, archery, gun shooting shit that they did at camp. And the girl thought it was cool. It gave me sort of a "job" at the camp. Well threw a bunch of old stuff out last week. I found the old tape. And I felt something totally different.

I watched everyone else doing shit. But I wasn't really doing anything but watching. And I'm never on the tape. It's like I didn't exist. Now don't get me wrong, I probably wouldn't be doing the stuff anyway because a lot of the people were assholes and didn't want me participating. Well there were times when They'd act like I was welcome, in front of authority figures, adults who wanted to think I was a loser anyway. Some idiot in the "click" would try to act like "hey Tony why didn't you do this or do that?" in front of the right people. So that way the adults could feel I was "excluding myself" and it had nothing to do with the "in crowd" shit. See back then there was no shit about "everyone's a winner" and "everything is fair".All this liberal crap hadn't taken over yet. I found a way to participate on my own. By "archiving" the things going on.

But today I felt something else. I felt left out. I felt like I'm still left out. I looked at the shit and realized I'm not invited to shit. I remembered how my filming was cool until it got looked at as "weird". The "pretty boy" at camp, mr. sports jock etc. started this shit. The jerk off my mother would say "why don't you make friends with him?" about. He had the looks, the talent, all the "charm" shit going on. His family was one of the most popular families at the church. The girl I liked totally decided to quit talking to me and avoid me on the last three days we were there. I figured out my "plans" for "settling" and my "making lemonade out of lemons" all my life never works in the end. And I felt hate and resentment for all the stupid ass kids I grew up with. The ones in the film. The "popular sports playing asshole" who ended up dating the girl I liked a year later. I hated the adults I saw. The "youth director" looked like an asshole. I found myself muttering curse words at the screen when I would see certain people. I remember feeling good that some of the girls got fat since then. Or they had bad lives. I hated all those self centered little shallow jerk off kids.

I figured something else out as well. I watched "Mr. Popular's" expressions. Now years later I am a master at reading people. Anyone who knows me can attest to this. I figured out what happened. There was a time I was sitting next to the girl I liked. Mr. popular already had a girlfriend. But I noticed the looks he gave her. As he was walking down a hill from target practice. This look at my camera that said " What the hell is this little jerk off trying to do?" The looks of disapproval aimed right at the girl. He probably said off the cuff shit to other guys. Like "what's up with Tony and the camera?" just enough to make what I was doing look fucked up. So as the week went by, even though I put down the camera, the damage was done. Something I did to help myself out socially ended up making me look like a freak.

I still went home with a warm feeling. A feeling that I had met someone special. I wrote her a letter, and thanked her for helping me to feel "welcome". Thanks for her friendship. She was the first girl to ever give me a phone number. I still have it memorized to this day. Rather that think I was a good guy and senscere and sensitive and all that shit, She looked at me with "pity" after that. And one day after churchI got invited to "Mr. popular's" house.My mom thought this was great for me.But I knew there had to be a "catch". Then I found out why. He always looked like the "good kid". He was the kid everyone wanted to have, good looking, good at sports, liked by everyone,even the "bad kids" and teachers included.He found a way to dump his girlfriend. She was another "popular" girl at church who had multiple boyfriends.He made it look like she "got around" too much. He played that one off and still no one thought he was being and asshole.

He called the girl I liked while I was at his house. Now all this was after I had brought her up, and even confided in this asshole I really liked her. He was using me to look like he was trying to befriend "pitiful loser" who had "hit on her" at camp. Me being at his house and saying a brief "hello " to the girl made her like this asshole even more. She could care less about me. But her "future man" was such a great guy for trying to make the "loser" fit in. I had to go to church every Sunday and watch those two sit together. I remember how he had about 100 trophies on his wall. And to this guy, she was just another trophy. They had no chemisty, never talked, just walked around looking pretty and smiling together. I had liked her because I thought she was funny, and nice. Not just because she was pretty.

I wanted a pretty girlfriend so bad back then. Just wanted to be able to walk in that door and say "look at me people.I got someone too!" I used to fantasize about meeting a really hot chick and being see out with her. But I didn't just want a "pretty" woman. I wanted a girl who didn't give a shit what anyone thought of me or her. Someone who didn't really need friends because she had me. A girl who had my back and I had hers.I never got my revenge. Yeah I know maybe some of it is a little shallow but fuck it. I wanted to show them I was just as desirable as this asshole was.

Years later an after many many women, I met my wife, who is hot and doesn't give a damn what anyone thinks. She is a great mother and she takes care of her man. And I'm almost 40 and still muscular, maybe a little bald , not perfect. But I actually look better than most "pretty boys" I grew up with do now at 40. I tried harder. But damn it was a lot of work. Years of trying, years of being hurt. And even though I'm doing well in one area still want to do better in my overall life. I'm tired of waiting for my "ship" to come in. I just want to be able to give my wife the best. I want to be able to tell her "she doesn't have to work", because I can pay for her car, and all the "extras" that she has to work for. But she likes to work so who knows it she'd even go for it if I could.

I guess the point is, even though it all works out for us at times, sometimes we wish we had "won" more often. I know failing and pain is part of life. But I just wish some of those idiots like Paris Hilton types who have it too easy could trade luck with me. I mean I've had more than enough failure in life to build "character." So maybe I could have it easy for a while while Paris got some "life lessons." I just want to win more often. I put the heart and the work into it. But today that is a losing formula. It's more about luck and bullshit. Think about that and have a great day.

Here's what I think about this election

2008-10-18T06:15:00.002-08:00

I haven't said shit because...
1) people have no idea and don't want to have any idea what caused this.
I predicted four years ago that Barak would be here. Read my blogs I've done here and myspace. NOT ONE SO CALLED EXPERT OR POLITICAL PUNDIT THOUGHT THIS. Everyone thought I was nuts. And I have to give credit where credit is due. When I saw liberal women crying for Barak I knew the racist white male hating brainwash had begun. My old buddy "Buffy " who I used to fight with on this blog is now involved in his campaign. You can actually see this ugly bitch all over youtube working the campaign. She was the first person I remember during the Kerry loss that started saying "Barak for president". Meanwhile detached rich idiots like Hannity were seeing him as "irrelivent." Stupid white trash people say "they won't elect no nigger president!" . That changed to "Well somebody will shoot him." Well I say to these idiots, if the muslims haven't got Bush , then wouldn't you think the secret service had their shit together? This guy was under secret service protection from the get go. And anyone who would assasinate Obama would be a fucking idiot. It would then force us into a bunch of "how great he was" and an annoying Obama holiday. Then we'd have to watch a bunch of crying liberals and angry black people talk shit every year about how "racist/bad/fucked up America is. JFK did a lot of shit to screw this country. But because he got killed, he was made out a hero, and all his bad policies were adopted. This is all we need. If Obama is elected, I want to show racist America that just because someone is black, they cannot solve every problem.

2) This deck has been being stacked for years and you cannot argue with these Obama supporters because they are fucking brainwashed and ignorant.
I said this for YEARS. TV has constantly portrayed black men as heroes and every white male character as flawed. The "white businessman" is the most common bad guy since the 70's. If a white guy is good at his job, for example a cop, he's divorced and can't handle a relationship. Watch Will Smith play a cop for example. Then watch ANY white cop movie. Same story. Divorced white guy, bad with relationships, black police chief etc. Then you got years of MTV, BET, music, it's all telling people "Black people are "real" and white people are evil.

3) Racism and white guilt are so deep seeded that you cannot fight this ignorance either.

Racism is the REASON Obama got this far. That and George Soros is mad at the Clintons so he decided on a better puppet. Months ago I heard a statement that said it all. It was made by disgrace to Italians Tony Danza. When he was jumping is his little gay hybrid he says " Let the black guy run the country". This is the REAL mentality. Liberals want to feel good about voting BLACK. Why ? Because the civil rights march liberals are getting old. Liberals from the 60's could always say " I marched with King or protested this in the 60's etc." to explain how much they've done for black people. Now you got kids who are too lazy to get out and do that much. But they can now grow up and say " I voted for Obama." That's how they can feel "not racist" and justify the rest of their self centered liberal life. HOW MANY PEOPLE VOTE FOR OBAMA BECAUSE HE IS BLACK? HOW MANY PEOPLE GIVE HIM A PASS ON THINGS NO WHITE GUY WOULD? You have racists like Jerimiah Wright, who he said was a mentor and father to him until he got caught. If McCain shopped at the same wal mart with David Duke he'd be suspect as a racist. Yet Obama gets a pass.

4) Obama got a pass on Ayers.

When I saw how you have to go to page 100 in google to even learn that Ayers actually killed people and took human life I knew. This guy killed his own girlfriend. But You hardly ever actually HEAR what the man did. He "served on a board". That's all you hear from even the conservative talk pundits. Oh towards the end you start to hear some facts about how close they really are. The conservative press has no idea how and why the average idiot thinks what they do. You have a whole generation watching movies that feature "heroic bank robbers who don't use guns". Then every 60's radical is looked at as people out to "change the world". They don't see the bombs. They think the bombs were "harmless" to people. They see people like Ayers as a "crusader". They see him as a hippie against government corruption. Not a stupid self centered liberal who said things like "There are no innocent white people" and advocated the death of people JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE WHITE. Not a guy who killed his own girlfriend with his bomb. There is no truth. If you don't know what Ayers did then SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT HIM . Hannity is such and idiot, saying "unrepentant terrorist" over and over, like he's programming morons. QUIT INSULTING THE INTELLEGENCE OF CONSERVATIVES. TELL WHAT HE DID IN DETAIL. People who care if he's a terrorist are ALREADY VOTING MCCAIN YOU IDIOT!!! If you want to change minds, tell what he actually did to these God DAMMED stupid people. Maybe a few liberals or independents will see this as "not the way you handle things". Maybe people will see the real relationship and be turned off by Obama's judgement.

5) fuck 80 percent of the conservative media. They're becoming clueless.

They gave away congress by encouraging republicans to stay home. When the liberals saw how they turned on their own, they figured it out. McCain was behind in the primaries. The libs said to themselves" Let's use the liberal media to push the one guy the conservatives shit talked for years." That was McCain. They saw how much power that conservative talk had. They knew the anti McCain shit would propel their guy to the top. This whole election was hijacked by the liberals. And the conservative media doesn't get it.

6) They can take their "stolen elections" shit and shove it up their ass. ACORN has been stealing entire state elections for the democrats the whole time. So if we really investigated the past few elections we'd find out that the only reason they were so close is the dead and homeless and the carrying busses to different polls to vote two and three times shit was going on. OH WAIT A MINUTE< DIDN'T I SAY THAT FOUR FUCKING YEARS AGO?

The point is it's now NOT WORTH ARGUING OVER. If you want to talk about the current situation, here's why it's like it is:

1) FDR and the "NEW DEAL", the NIRA and the like started the framework.

2) after WW2 , democrats stopped us from putting a stop to the Soviet's bullshit (starting with the Berlin Blockade, division of Germany, etc.) CAUSING THE COLD WAR. Which years later caused us to have to deal with Osama Bin Laden in Afganistan.

3) JFK caused us to lose Cuba to communism.

3) Carter did the "community reinvestment act", which paved the way for fannie mae and freddie mac. Gave away the panama canal. Turned control of oil prices to OPEC. Got rid of the shaw of Iran, who was our ally. This lead to American hostages being taken by the very people Carter put in control. The very guy who took the hostages runs Iran today. So no he's not our enemy because "we invaded Iraq". He's our enemy because Carter enabled him to come to power. We had to make deals with Saddam Hussein to help us get our hostages back. He used to be an ally. But if Carter would have left Iran alone, no Saddam, no extremists running Iran.

4) Clinton relaxed the regulations on the community reinvestment act, used Janet Reno to force more high risk loans.He also signed NAFTA, which opened the floodgates to mexico. He also tried to stop as much domestic oil drilling as possible, and put a stop to new refineries. Clinton did nothing to stop Bin Laden.He could have.

5) Bush inherited the community reinvestment act. Tried to regulate it in 2005, but was stopped (and called a racist for trying).

So what do we have now? Let's look at Bush's problems. 9/11 would not have happened if it were not for the cold war,(Which Reagan won by the way) ,or if Clinton did his job. Gas prices would have not been under OPEC'S control if not for CARTER. We would have more domestic production if clinton hadn't of voted against it.The mortgage crisis would never have happened if it were not for Carter and Clinton. The immigration problem was started by Clinton. If anything, Bush simply FAILED to turn back YEARS of democratic mistakes. So the real "CHANGE" we need is to change all the failed policies of the past democratic presidents. Democrats push us towards a socialist agenda, then blame all the screw ups on whatever republican has to deal with their shit. And people fall for it every time. Just like all these idiots who think they are going to lose their welfare or social security when a republican is in office. It hasn't happened in 8 years of Bush. And you little whores can still have your abortions too.

SO I'M SICK OF IDIOTS. NO ONE GETS IT BECAUSE IT'S ALL A POPULARITY CONTEST.
YOU CANNOT DENY WHERE BUSH'S PROBLEMS CAME FROM. BUT PEOPLE ARE SO FULL OF HATE THEY SEE THE HISTORY AND THE FACTS AND STILL BLAME EVERYTHING ON BUSH. Simply because it boils down to one thing. It's "cool" to be liberal. And that's all it's about. SO any time a conservative gets in , most of the hate is started by PEOPLE WHO COULD GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THIS COUNTRY. The rich, the spoiled, the hollywood trash. And then they brainwash the rest of society. They cannot admit the mistakes of history that lead us here. and no one cares. No one sees how yesterday can effect today. When you live in a world of zombies like this , there is no hope.

Think about that. And have a great day.

Once again I was 100 percent right about Miley Cyrus/Hanna Montanna

2008-04-28T18:15:00.001-08:00

I explained all this before and time and time again so I'm not going to re hash it here. I explained Disney has a plan. All the girls who work for Disney, Brittney Spears, Christina Augilera, The Olsen Twins, The Cast of High School Musical, Lindsay Lohan, etc. They all end up in some sex scandal or drug scandal. It's all a plan. Just like they started slutting out Britney at 16 .Remember I had wrote about my bartender in the early 90's talking about how her kids only listen to harmless "good girl" music artists like Britney Spears? She was talking about "how bad" Madonna is.Years later they're making out. I predicted the High School Musical scandal early as well.So here it goes. I predicted Hanna Montanna would start slutting out as soon as her brand started getting older.She only has so many years before the little 8-12 year olds quit buying her shit. Then on to the horny guys/future slut market. See because of years of slutting out girls to act 17 or 18 by 12 (it starts at as young as 5 or 6)with this disney shit,By the time they're 12-13 stuff like Hanna Montanna is kiddie shit. They laugh at that stuff. A little girl trying to act 18 is not going to use a 15 year old "good girl" for a role model.It's time to go to "whore school" .
So it started with "bra flashing" and went on to Vanity Fair with a 15 year old rolling aroung naked in a blanket. Hanna Montanna is over.She's going to be mega slut "Miley Cyrus".Her parents were there at the photo shoot. You mean to tell me good ol' Billy Ray Cyrus didn't see what was up? Anyone who thinks this shit is not planned out is a fucking idiot. Billy Ray Cyrus is a fucking loser idiot with one hit. So now he's gotta pimp out his daughter to make a buck.Gee I hope all those 400 "corrupted kids" they took from the poligamy compound aren't going to get any ideas.I mean what kind of country do we live in that they take kids away from their mothers because they have teenage pregnancy, so they can go to homes that have TV shows that glorify smart assed teen sluttery? Oh I forgot , they talked about Jesus in the compound so now we can take these kids to a safe secular sex filled world. Plus some of the kids in the poligamy compound weren't given the opportunity to turn out gay. Thank almighty God they can all enjoy their abortion rights and fuck the hell out of the school drug dealers or the neighborhood gang bangers (many of who are over 18, but hey as long as a guy is a "thug" or "hood" fucking under aged girls is not considered wrong in this ghetto world)Or get laid by their teachers.Like I said before, if they're worried about teens getting pregnant then why not snatch kids out of high school or the ghetto? And if they're worried about people fucking under aged kids then close down the schools. Because the teachers are all getting laid nowadays.
The point is Miley Cyrus is just another low classed girl with an idiot father.He couldn't make it himself. He thinks his shit acting skills or going on some "dancing with the stars" bullshit is going to make him marketable. Enjoy it while it lasts Billy Ray. When she get the drugs going she'll tell you to fuck off too.Then you can shove your " achy breaky" heart up your ass.

Barak Obama's stereotyping white people once again

2008-04-13T09:16:00.001-08:00

Mayhill Fowler has more from Obama's remarks at a San Francisco fundraiser Sunday, and they include an attempt to explain the resentment in small-town Pennsylvania that won't be appreciated by some of the people whose votes Obama's seeking:

You go into these small towns in Pennsylvania and, like a lot of small towns in the Midwest, the jobs have been gone now for 25 years and nothing's replaced them...And they fell through the Clinton Administration, and the Bush Administration, and each successive administration has said that somehow these communities are gonna regenerate and they have not.

And it's not surprising then they get bitter, they cling to guns or religion or antipathy to people who aren't like them or anti-immigrant sentiment or anti-trade sentiment as a way to explain their frustrations.

Yeah all us stupid white folks "cling to our guns and religion"

You want to talk about clinging, talk to these people:
The Jena Six

And talk to these people about their issues before you call out white folks
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As for ME...I'll cling to this:

Alicia keys:AKA ignorant bitch

2008-04-13T09:12:00.002-08:00

Well I've been trying to tell people for years this shit is coming.All the years of teaching black kids hate, all the years the liberals have been enabling black people to focus on how "oppressed" they are is paying off. Being on the "street" I've heard those same old theories for years, about how the government , AKA "rich white people" are plotting to destroy the black people.Republicans are mostly blames for this, because black people are told by the media that "the democrats are your friends." Just listen to any hip hop or rap station, and you'll hear the whole "who we gonna vote for" discussion only ever focuses on the democratic candidates. Also listen to the same station, and they'll call Bill Cosby a fool when he says gangster rap is bad for black people. Yet I'm sure they will be hippocritical and also agree with Alicia Keys as well. Who says this:

NEW YORK — There's another side to Alicia Keys: conspiracy theorist.

The Grammy-winning singer-songwriter tells Blender magazine: "'Gangsta rap' was a ploy to convince black people to kill each other. 'Gangsta rap' didn't exist."

Keys, 27, said she's read several Black Panther autobiographies and wears a gold AK-47 pendant around her neck "to symbolize strength, power and killing 'em dead," according to an interview in the magazine's May issue, on newsstands Tuesday.

Another of her theories: The bicoastal feud between slain rappers Tupac Shakur and Notorious B.I.G. was fueled "by the government and the media, to stop another great black leader from existing."

Keys' AK-47 jewelry came as a surprise to her mother, who is quoted as telling Blender: "She wears what? That doesn't sound like Alicia." Keys' publicist, Theola Borden, said Keys was on vacation and unavailable for comment.

Though she's known for her romantic tunes, she told Blender that she wants to write more political songs. If black leaders such as the late Black Panther Huey Newton "had the outlets our musicians have today, it'd be global. I have to figure out a way to do it myself," she said.

The multiplatinum songstress behind the hits "Fallin"' and "No One" most recently had success with her latest CD, "As I Am," which sold millions.

OK Now let's see where this makes no sense. Tupac was a ballet dancer.Tupac just wanted to make money.Here's where he comes from.

Fact 1.
Tupac's mother, Black Panther Afeni Shakur, was arrested in April 1969 for alleged conspiracy to bomb New York City police stations and landmarks. Temporarily out on bail in 1970, she became pregnant with Tupac but was forced to return to jail when several codefendants skipped town. At trial in May 1971, she successfully defended herself; she then gave birth to Tupac in June. "My embryo was in prison," he later chuckled.

Fact 2.
"I was fucking white girls," he recalled years later of his teen years at the Baltimore School for the Arts, a Fame-like performing arts high school. Once, he promised sex to a gay male student named Eskiah if he'd help Tupac land a hard-to-get girl named Kelly. Eskiah made it happen, but Tupac reneged: "After I bust my nut, Eskiah was like, 'When's my turn?…' I told him, 'You must be out of your fuckin' mind.'"

Fact 3.
After moving to Maryland with his mother and younger sister in 1984, Tupac was accepted into the Baltimore School for the Arts, where he majored in drama and studied dance. He began battle rhyming on the side, nicknaming himself MC New York.

Fact 4
He got his start as a backup rapper and dancer for Digital Underground.
His friend Leila Steinberg scored him an audience with MC Shock G in 1989. G remembers that Tupac's audition was "street, it was educated, it was articulate. I was like, 'Damn, this cat's intense!' "

Fact 5
Ayanna Jackson, a 19-year-old girl Tupac had met in a nightclub, told police that he and two of his friends pinned her to a hotel bed and sodomized and raped her in 1993. Tupac vigorously denied it, claiming he hadn't even been in the room. In court in a wheelchair, he was cleared of sodomy and weapons charges but sentenced to one and a half to four and a half years in prison for sexual abuse.
HE WAS SHOT FOR RAPING A GIRL.

This guy is no leader.

Jena Six News

2008-04-13T09:12:00.001-08:00

Remember the "Jena six" story? The story that was changed around to make black kids who beat down a white kid the "victims"? I remembered how I was sitting there and predicting how it would be. First, a SEPERATE incident involving a noose was brought up. The noose had nothing to do with the beaten white kid. That’s a fact in the story. The Jenna Times newspaper, the locals, all admit to this.Basically the whole "noose" issue that had happened at a different time involving a different situation. Someone hung a noose on a tree. They were trying to piss off black people. Later on six black guys beat up a white kid.They are punished. The press and the race pimps jump in to defend them. When I heard the first story, they were talking about what is a "hate crime" agaist whites. That’s the real story. But after talking about the beating , the reporter says "Jena has had racial incidents before, recently a noose had been hung on this tree "I was yelling out (and you can ask my wife) "Oh fucking hell no! They’re going to start talking about that fucking noose and act like the whole beating was over that!!! They’re going to change the story!!!" Sure enough, that’s EXACTLY what happend. The whole story ended up with the black kids BECOMING THE VICTIMS. Ask anyone what the case is about and they have no idea.Because like most of America, THEY WEREN’T PAYING ATTENTION.OK fine don’t pay attention if you don’t want to. But don’t fucking open your mouth with an opinion if you don’t know the story. Everyone just automatically assumes the sitation must be based on "white racism."Ask a person on the street about the Jenna six and you’ll get all kinds of "noose" stories.The noose has nothing to do with the six guys that beat the white kid. It was brought up to change the story. To me this is no different that a mexican writing "fuck white America" in a port-o-john., then a month later a mexican is punched by a white construction worker.Is it blamed on the unknown mexican who wrote on the wall of the outdoor toilet? Is the white guy "innocent" because he was insulted by a mexican who works in the same area as him? Anyway here’s what is happening now:

Questions about Jena case funds

Just weeks after some 20,000 demonstrators protested what they decried as unequal justice aimed at six black teenagers in the Louisiana town of Jena, controversy is growing over the accounting and disbursing of at least $500,000 donated to pay for the teenagers’ legal defense.

Parents of the "Jena 6″ teenagers have refused to publicly account for how they are spending a large portion of the cash, estimated at up to $250,000, that resides in a bank account they control.

Michael Baisden, a nationally syndicated black radio host who is leading a major fundraising drive on behalf of the Jena 6, has declined to reveal how much he has collected. Attorneys for the first defendant to go to trial, Mychal Bell, say they have yet to receive any money from him.

Meanwhile, photos and videos are circulating across the Internet that raise questions about how the donated funds are being spent. One photo shows Robert Bailey, one of the Jena 6 defendants, smiling and posing with $100 bills stuffed in his mouth. Another shows defendants Carwin Jones and Bryant Purvis modeling like rap stars on a red carpet at the Black Entertainment Television Hip Hop music awards in Atlanta last month."

As soon as I upload some pictures of these guys, I’ll post them. You decide.

A myspace blog post I did on wed march 26th BEFORE THE PREGNANT MAN EPISODE ON OPRAH..I must be a prophet.

2008-04-13T09:09:00.001-08:00

The other day I’m watching Montel Williams. They have this black woman who wants plastic surgery to look "whiter". And then they have an asian woman who wants elliptical fold surgery to make her eyes "rounder" and a nose job. Now in the audience there are all these teary eyed people. There is talk of "self esteem issues"and the they bring in psychiatrists and "experts".They talk about how wrong these people are for wanting surgery. Then they talk about "why are white people forcing their standard of beauty on the world". Like whites get up and make an effort to force people to "look white". Give me a fucking break. If a white woman got a brazillian butt job would that be blamed on latinos and blacks with big butts? NOW WHAT REALLY KILLS ME IS THIS...The same fucking talk shows regularly applaud TRANSEXUALS getting much more drastic surgery. No tears, except for the "struggle" these people go through "being trapped in the wrong body". The "experts" are all for breast implants and penis removal.And steroids taken by women wanting to become men suddenly become a "cure". When a dyke wants to take testosterone "become a man" how come the "dangers of steroids" are never brought up? How come no one says that the transexual isn’t just suffering from "self esteem problems" ? If a gay man wants a boob job no one talks about the risks. No one acts like they are "afraid to be a real person" or "trying to be someone else" These are the comments you hear when straight people want to "look better’. We have double standards in society based on a set of rules. There is free speech, as long as it blames whites and puts them down for example. It’s OK to generalize whites, blame them as a group. Like even if you’re doing nothing to cause a problem it’s still your fault because as a white person it’s your job to serve everyone else in the world. Ask a black person to do something about black on black violence , for example ,and you’re called a racist. Same thing when it comes to gays.Ever see "Brokeback Mountain"? If that was a straight couple, having sex drunk in a tent , the way it was portrayed in this film, would be called RAPE.And the guy seeking out the other guy and harassing him , well in the straight world that’s called "STALKING". Basically the guy in Brokeback Mountain is a SEXUAL PREDATOR.Back to my original point. If my wife wanted her breast implants removed, and wanted to take testosterone TO BECOME A MAN (simply called "male hormones" when used for gay purposes) she would be applauded by the mainstream hollywood scene. If I , as a man wanted to use those same hormones to "enhance myself physically" all the sudden those same "male hormones" would be called "poison" and I would be an "irresposible person" .It’s OK for a woman to use the "poison" for a sex change. But For me , a guy pushing 40 who’s eaten right and exercised since 15 years old, who lives a "clean" lifestyle, that would be wrong. And keep in mind also every woman over 43 in America is pushed to take estrogen, yet testosterone for men or "TRT" (testosterone replacement therapy) is looked down on. But it’s OK to push fast food, alcohol, smoking, and the like. Hospitals are full of people who use alcohol, tobacco, overweight, or use recreational drugs. Yet where are all the steroid users and straight people with plastic surgery complications? Well I guess it’s just not the "in" thing to do. Think about that and have a great day.

Reverend Wright will not effect Barak's campaign (originally published on march 18th on my myspace blog, now once again proven right)

2008-04-13T08:59:00.003-08:00

Barak Obama will not be affected by the whole "reverend Wright" issue. He talked his way out of the whole thing today.Funny the people who think he "fucked up" weren’t going to vote for him anyway. I mean the guy said a bunch of white hating, USA hating shit.This sounds no different from all the liberals, the celeberties, and most of the media. Do you think any of these idiots are going to change their beliefs? Most of the black voters will go for anything that runs down whites and continues the whole victim/entitlement attitude. I mean look at how much shit black and hip hop radio hosts say about Bill Cosby when he points out or blames anything on blacks? Most of the "ghetto/urban/hood" culture is assumed and pushed by black radio (they play promos on urban stations that say "the hood" and make references to the sterotypes all black are from the "hood" so It’s their words not mine) And black comedians act like all black people are the same way or have this "ghetto/hood" culture. Just like all fat black women are supposed to talk about how "sexy" they are. So the only problem I see with what Barak Obama said is where he said positive things about whites. I mean I PERSONALLY know a lot of black people as well as ignorant whites who believe the crap Jerimiah Wright says. I have heard a lot of these people say "the government invented aids" and " the government makes black people sell drugs" for fucking years. The issue is a lot of people are sheltered and have no idea what’s going on in the street, so they may be shocked to hear what a lot of black people are thinking. I mean look at the time the black guy says to "kill all whites" or listen to the response to Mr. Wright. Cheers and clapping, and no one seems shocked. The whole difference in liberals and conservatives on this issue is most liberals think we deserve the blacks to hate us and they are the "enlightened ones" who will save us by forcing us to kiss their asses forever. And most of the conservatives realize how bad the world actually is.Think about that and have a great day.

Again , either I a psychic or I am authoring this world...

2008-02-15T06:52:00.003-09:00

How do I know this stuff? on Sunday, February 11, 2007 on this very blog I posted the "hip hop community's" view on Barak Obama. I said they had a "what will he do for us" mentality.Funny a show on BET said THOSE EXACT WORDS. I know what I'm talking about. I have constantly stated Barak would be where he is today and I have a blog post up on myspace I am going to re run here. Here it is:

I think it's funny how I predicted almost 8 years ago Barak Obama would be running neck and neck with Hillary. I payed attention to the buzz, the culture, the street. On my GFIC blog I posted how the "secret" jungle fever going on within the hearts of 70 percent of America's white women along with the constant brainwashing of a whole generation that the "white run establishment" is the cause of all of the world's problems would add up to this. I have been laughed at by rich idiots and white trash naysayers alike. They constantly say " America would NEVER take a black guy seriously, at least not in this day and age. " I don't hate to say " I TOLD YOU SO."Just like the ignorant wannbe KKK throwbacks used to say " The only kinda white girls who get with black guys are the big fat ones anyway." Well see what we got now boys... And it just kills me when all these so called "pollitical analists" who make thousands writing books and speaking their opinions are now saying " I NEVER thought Barak would do this good...Well I predicted a lot of things in my life and have been BALLS ON ACCURATE... SO let's talk about Hilliary's dillema now... If she wins there will be lot of disgruntled minorities, if she loses and tried to pull it out through the basic trickery she'll be painted as a "racist" (they're already calling Bill Clinton a racist on black radio) You guys really want to see what's going on, back off the conservative talk radio long enough to look at other venues. Want to know what black America's up to? Listen to a black morning show on the radio. Listen to some of the downright racist hatred that is spewed every day on the "urban" stations. Look at how many latinos in the grocery store are sporting food stamp cards. Who are they being farmed out to? NO coincidence the democratic national committee's envelopes look exactly like the same artwork used on the food stamp cards here. People will open it just to see if they have any more "benefits" coming their way.Listen to what kids in high school say, or the 20 somthings, or the college kids. Listen to a white 19 year old tell you how "they don't trust white people" Listen to a 23 year old white girl tell you how "she cannot deal with white men" Ask a 5 year old who George Washington , Christopher Columbus or Benjamin Franklin is. Chances are they won't know. But they'll sure as hell know who MARTIN LUTHER KING is. I was told be 2 children attending the same school, one 6 , one 8 , that Martin Luther King " SAVED THE WHOLE WORLD" and "THE WHITE PEOPLE KILLED HIM".And there's a 12 foot MLK tapestry and an "African History Wall" the moment you walk in my local school. We are in a generation that is being taught HATE nonstop. HATE THE WHITE RACE, HATE CAPITALISM, HATE THE CHRISTIAN RELIGEON. The sad thing is there are so many of you out there who think I'm nuts. If I tried to tell this to a conservative talk show host , like Bill O' Riley, he's think I'm insane and totally dismiss everything I am saying. If I'm crazy then why am I so good at predicting what's going on? The problem is there are so many detached people in society that have no idea that "ghettoism" or "atheism" or all the other garbage is being forced on their kids. When I go into a skating rink, or I watch the countless toddlers on youtube dancing to "crank that solder boy" or whatever I want to puke. Kids dancing to a song that says " Soulja Boy Off In This Hoe" as the first line.Is that reffering to "penetration?" And when the song says"Watch Me Super Soak Dat Hoe" what exactly is going to be doing the "soaking"??? Oh yeah we come from a generation that "JUST LISTENS TO THE BEAT"... this is what everyone says when the stupidity of rap or hip hop lyrics is brought up. Well just goes to show you... Today I watched a reporter ask a group of Obama supporters to "Name an accomplishment of Barak Obama"... well they couldn't come up with anything other than he was elected to the senate, or he was the first black senator...in other words these people were totally clueless as to what Barak actually is...Well I guess if he ends up being elected these same idiots can say " I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT BARAK WAS SAYING HE STOOD FOR ....I JUST LISTEN TO THE BEAT...."
think about that ...and have a great day....

Hillary Clinton needs Butt Implants...

2008-02-15T06:40:00.001-09:00

Hillary Clinton's people are posting all this crap on their website about some statement David Geffen made. Now if you don't know who David Geffen is, he's a record executive, media guy, makes movies,etc. He used to finance Bill Clinton. Now he's raising millions for Barak Obama.He's also openly gay. I guess Barak is going to help the gay agenda more than Hillary so he's backing him now.The point is , Hillary's strategy is all wrong. I went to her website and they're bitching about somthing Geffen said. They're saying Barak should give back the money he raised.What this bitch doesn't get is most of America doesn't give a damn about what's going on in the "reality" of politics.He could say "fuck Jesus Christ" and it would mean nothing to the morons who vote nowdays. Now if Geffen said somthing about Tupac or said "the N word" or did somthing against "liberal culture"then it would be a big deal. Hillary just doesn't get that no one cares to hear about Barak finacial backers, or hear dirt on who he worked for , or whatever. People giving a damn about what "kind "of person is running for president anymore is over and done with with most of these "new" voters.She's done this many times before, brought up issues of ethics and thought she was really saying somthing that would "make people think". Well sorry Hilliary, that shit went out a long time ago. And why are we in this state of affairs today? Your husband. Bill Clinton helped turn the presidency into a popularity contest.People were conditioned to care less who's getting blown in the oval office, who's lying, who's being dishonest.As long as they are a liberal, it's totally accepted to live how you want because that's what being a liberal is all about anyway. The only time "being gay" is a huge issue for example, is if a republican is gay.The same people who talk about "tolerance" are quick to crucify a gay Republican.A presidetial election has about the same amout of thought put into it as a high school "class president" election. I remember in high school, three people gave speeches to be class president. One was a girl who was pretty but she was actually trying to do somthing academic and get past getting by on her looks.Another was a guy who actually took the shit serious and actually thought he could do somthing for the school.The third guy was a drunk, partying football player. The pretty girl got up to speak and had her big boobs covered, and wore very light makeup . All I heard was the guys saying " what's with that outfit"? and "damn what happened to her?". The smart guy got up and basically got heckled and made fun of. He cut his speech short because of all the harassment.The third guy , the drunk fooball jock gets up and yells out a bunch of shit about how " you all know me as a guy who likes to party, but I'm going to slow down a little bit!!!"And continues to insult certain "uncool" teachers while saying positive stuff about the coaches, and promises shit that everyone knows will never happen.Who do you think won? The drunk jock. I hear nowdays he's a cop.Presidental politics has become just like high school. Everyone can know a guy isn't qualified and they don't care. They'll say stuff like "Oh the president doens't have that much power anyway".Yet the same IGNORANT SHEEP will say that George Bush can control the weather and is listening to their phone calls.The point is , do you think the smart guy or the hot girl would have won the election by pointing out the Jock is an idiot? DO you think anyone would care? Well if the smart guy brought up anything negative about the football guy no one would listen. But if the hot girl wore a low cut tight top and a minskirt and accidentally dropped the mic on her way to the podium...Then she could say stuff about the time the Jock "lost the game" and people would listen. As long as she didn't try to talk about anything that mattered. As long as her insults were about superficial things. Then the jock would have to say " she stuffs her bra" or "she's a cock tease"... These are the things that matter. Too bad Hillary isn't hot. She just might have a chance then. I could hear it now " OK people, I've heard the rumors about black men and let me tell you, I've heard about Barak from some of the ladies, and well, if you compare his package to my husband Bill's , I'd have to say my husband is the "blacker" of the two men... if you don't get that joke read between the parenthses (((OK if you haven't heard Bill Clinton was once dubbed "the first black president", and the joke above is about comparing penis sizes , and how the rumor is all black men have a large penis.I put this explaination here in hopes a liberal, ghettosized person or the ignorant white trash will read and learn ))) Anyway we'll see how it pans out. I heard Hillary fired her campaign manger. She needs to find a plastic surgeon if she really wants to win.. Some blonde hair extensions, DDD boob job, botox, and huge butt implants. Hey the butt job-there's your black male vote right there...think about that and have a great day...

Things I told you before...

2008-01-04T03:27:00.001-09:00

Here we are , Barak Obabma won the Iowa caucus with an 8 pont lead over everyone else.All the bitching about how Iowa DOESN"T REPRESENT AMERICA because it's 94 percent white should be shut up now.My point is the same as 8 years ago.Facts about white people.1)Most of them reall, really,WANT TO LIKE BLACK PEOPLE. Most whites will go out of their way to "make it up" to the entire black race for what they supposedly did to them by being born white.They just get turned off by blacks who look like and speak like pimps and have their hand out wanting a constant apology from white America like Al Sharpton. They are tired of so called "black leaders" who are all and only about "black issues" and could care less about the country that is majority white and funded mostly by white tax dollars.It's ok for blacks to say "this country was built on the backs of black slaves" but if a white guy says "what about white tax dollars that basically support this country" you're a racist.2) If you really thought white women would vote for another woman over a black man you're wrong again. Women vote with their vaginas.And about 70 percent of white women in this country have all gone to this idealized "mandingo" fantasy nowdays. Just remember 8 years ago women were shouting "Barak Obama" when all they new about him was he's black and in shape.On another note, Brittney Spears got into another custody fight and ended up in the hospital.Why do I care?Brittney is white trash who came up for a while, and is living her life the way she would have been if idiots never gave her a career. She is not "going down" she's just acheiving her true destiny. Like if you dressed up a bum or a pig in a suit, why wonder how it ended up dirty?Would you say "damn that pig went downhill! Look at all that mud on his new suit!!Think about that and have a great day...

I'm sick of women saying "Don't Judge Me" on myspace

2007-12-21T16:06:00.000-09:00

I've spoke on this before but I had to say somthing else.What is the deal with everyone who has all this "don't judge me" crap on myspace? Most of them are self centered trying to draw attention to themselves.I myself am judged due to my career choices, even for being in a interracial marriage and even for being drug free and watching what I eat. I have been judged for my beleifs and any stand I ever took. We all are. So what's the big deal? I think what a lot of people mean who say "don't judge me" is "don't hold me accoutable for my behavior". People are going to think what they want. Try telling a muslium terrorist "not to judge you" for being a Christian. People are going to think what they want, and being cocky about it isn't going to make them stop. Look at who's screaming "don't judge me". Most of them are girls who are running around begging to be judged. Judged as sex objects, judged as people who live life the way THEY want no matter if it hurts their kids, family or whatever. If you can't handle being looked at as a whore for example, then cover up your fucking fake boobs and dressing to show your body. These types want to be judged, just on their terms. They want to be judged as a hot woman who is secure with her body and her decisions in life.They want to present themselves as a "fun loving sexpot" but don't want people to think of the downside of living only for yourself. Women like this put countless half naked pictures up on myspace then some try to prove there is "more to them" than the sexual image they portray.Why do pretty girls (or girls who think they're hot)have to "prove" they are more than pretty girls? Everyone knows pretty people get more chances in life, even pretty girls get breaks from other females who want to be them.And everyone is more interested in what an attractive person has to say, or their feelings.If you think I'm full of shit just look at how older people are ignored by society, or how much everyone worries about hurting the fat bald white guy's feelings. Look at the celeberty world.People worry more about Brad Pitt getting dumped than say Gilbert Godfrey getting a divorce.The point is if you are hot and feel you have to show another side of yourself you don't get it. People will see another side and depending on what they think they can get out of you. If they think you like them they will care about all your hopes and dreams and disaponintments. If you treat them badly (unless it's a lovestruck idiot) they will feel anger towards you. In some cases an attractive female who treats a man like shit gets away with it because the man makes excuses for her behavior and sees her as a poor victim. So as you can see all this "judging" isn't so bad after all with the people whining about "being judged". Just every now and then someone doesn't find their half naked boob pictures a reason to think this person is the greatest thing since sliced bread, well then it's "don't judge me". Well don't judge everyone else in the world who doesn't kiss your ass or want to screw you as "jealous" or "haters". Just sometimes people don't care what you look like. If you really want people to see you as more then put other things out there other than your sex pics and pictures of you all over different thugs guys or with your wild ass friends. Write about somthing that interests you, take pictures of you helping out at the old folks home or whatever. But if you don't want to do that then take the good judging with the bad judging. Just try to avoid the "trendy" subjects like animal rights or whatever. It seems like all these ddd cup bimbos have to be in fucking PETA nowdays to look like they have more in their head than just air and thoughts of self love. They love "all animals". And the way it looks to sane folks is these type of girls are worried about animals because they want to preserve a higher intellegence than themselves. These people just need to read more or learn more about who they are outside their appearance.Or not. There is no rule that says you have to have more than one dimension to your personality. But don't worry girls, if you're having a hard time with all the "hate" due to your "hotness" then just give it time. That stuff will all be gone when you get old. Then you can "hate" on the 23 year olds. And as far as these people saying "only God can judge me" well I say "practice what you preach". You want to get technical , God tells us to "depart from the very appearance of evil" so you have to use a little judgement skill to figure that one out. Not judging in the biblical sense basically means give the person a chance to show you their heart or look past the "outward man". It means if someone appears to be a certain way you should try to learn their heart or share your beliefs with them, and not assume they are "all bad" by their appearance and looking down on them as less than a creation of God, or a "child of God". But if that person shows you or is not willing to show you anything else, then you have to take them at face value.As far as the Christian Bible saying "only God can judge me" well ever hear of the book in the bible called "judges"? It means only God can judge your HEART. It means only God knows your inner self. Hey want to get biblical? How about this 1Timothy 2:9
In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;

But(which becometh women professing godliness) with good works.

In other words, God says women should dress modestly (not boobs hanging out)and do "good works" to "adorn themselves"
So if you silly ass women want to quote God and the bible then don't just pick and choose what serves your purpose. Also the bible says not to drive men to lust after you as well. So let's just accept we're all sinners and don't always bring God into the argument when you created your own "judging" situation by ignoring another principal of God of not by not dressing properly and "driving men to lust" after you. That makes about as much sense as being a stripper and praying to God that you'll turn on a married man at work and make a lot of money so you can pay your bills because you spent everything else you made on weed.Now think about that and have a great day...

Why disney is one of the greatest evils fo our time...

2007-09-27T10:31:00.000-08:00

I fucking hate the disney channel, the company, all that they stand for. From their showcases of gay families to mark hetrosexuals as a moderen day leper colony ,to their pre concieved plans to showcase tomorrow's super-sluts I hate this company. They brought us Brittney Spears and Christina Augulera from mickey mouse club.They glamorize gays like Elton John who do their soundtracks and Ellen Degeneres who voice their gay propaganda cartoons.First let me say "I told you so" or at least I can to my family. The newest Disney garbage " High School Musical" has been banned at my house. Due to the fact that the little girls on the show will be tommorow's disney uberwhores. I hit it right as usual. Here we have a scandal involving a high school musical slut and her "accidental" nude pictures. Yeah right. Don't tell me Disney didn't plan that marketing move all along. Most people in America had no clue who "Vanessa Hugens" was until her nude pictures were magically "discovered". Little kids will still idolize the girl, and look at her as a "nude role model". Meanwhile anyone who thinks otherwise is "uncool" and that drives a rift further between this generation and the next. The generation Disney's type of followers hope will accept their future campaign to make gay marriage and the REAL GOAL of leagalizing SEX WITH CHILDREN will be a close reality. Great how "Sir Elton John" who runs down Christianity (like the other DISNEY DYKE Rosie 'O Donell) now has been caught with pictures of naked children he calls "art". Wait and see, all these "great gay role models" are deep down child predators. Wonder if Elton will be doing another soundtrack for another disney cartoon? OPEN YOUR EYES PEOPLE.Disney hires all these anti-religeon gays who spout off insults at Jesus, they produce some of the biggest trashy whores in the music industry. What good is this company other than to take your money and brainwash your kids? Let's look at an average Disney show, like "That's so Raven "for example. Unfortunately the little tramp has gotten too fat for "sex symbol" status, so now she's got to play the "fiesty know it all overweight black buffoon" role that any overweight black actress (or closet gay ACTOR like Tyler Perry and Eddie Murphy who like to pretend to be fat black women) is stereotyped in.Do like I do . WATCH THE SHOW. And then see what kids get out of it. Put yourself in the position of what would happen if a child in your home did these behaviors etc. The plot of ever "That's So Raven" episode is 1) raven wants to do somthing or have somthing etc. that is "off limits" 2) Raven lies of decieves in one way or another. 3) the circmstances around Raven's lies are "funny" and "comical" 4) finally the lie is found out, BUT WITH NO REAL LIFE CONSEQUENCES.Kids only see the funny part about the adventures in lying and deception. The "punishment" is always somthing maybe a little annoying but portrayed as "funny". But when my kids outright lie to me there is no "laugh track". Then the next show everthing is OK, and Raven lies again. The important "lessons" are all here. 1) parents are stupid but eventually figure out the lie when it is so obvious a retarted goldfish would figure it out. 2) kids are "people too" meaning adults should have to answer to kids in an "equal role", even though they are not experienced at life. This is just a way to diminsh the role of a straight two parent household.Then there are the "single fathers" on TV, the "mythical creatures" that are buffoons and not needed in today's glamorization of "single moms" . Single moms=gay parenting, "Full House" showcases "single dads" but simply for the whole "male gay parent" fantasy. The reason there are 3 men on the show is so it's not obvious what the message is.Nowdays we can probably have two gay dads raising kids on TV. But what a problem that would be. I mean ALL GAY MEN are portrayed as these INTELLEGENT guys who always make the straight guys the butt of the joke.The gay guy always wins on TV. So if you had a show with two gay guys, how would the wize cracks go? I mean would it be like the old Mad Magazeine "Spy VS. Spy" where one time the black spy wins and the other time the white one wins? No they'd probable have a gay friendly neighbor married to a "homophobic" white guy so the women and the two gays could insult him the whole show. Just wait people. When you see the "Hanna Montana Sex Tape" or her appearance in "playboy" don't think it wasn't planned all along.Think about it...
and have a great day.

2007-08-04T09:14:00.001-08:00

2007-08-04T09:13:00.001-08:00

New stuff going on in my life...

2007-05-05T14:08:00.001-08:00

The role of Loyalty in my life...(part 1)

2007-04-11T08:56:00.000-08:00

I was just thinking about my life, where I am and how I got there. And if I had to sum up in one word what got me where, it would be the word "loyalty". When I was growing up, I had a very good mother. She taught me how to read before I started school. No "pre-K" shit, no daycare, just me and mom.I was the first of three children so my mom had that excitement of being a new mom.That was before the invention of "post partum depression" and all those other things women get now that allows some of them to ignore their new children.She didn't know she was supposed to be depressed so she was thrilled to have a new baby.My father was still a little wild, still doing what he wanted to do. Yes he was an extemely hard worker, an intense man, and a good man. But like a lot of young fathers he wasn't ready for a child yet. There were times he would stay out doing his "thing" which was usually gambling or whatever else he was involved in. So when mom wasn't getting the attention she needed from dad, she put all her efforts into raising me. My dad used to bring me home toys from wherever he went.Usually some cheap yet unusual stuff, but I thought they were all "special". So my connection to my dad sort of ended up being the things he gave me. He carved me a wooden gun, which I still have to this day. I cherished everything dad ever gave me. I can go to my mom's attic right now and most of my toys are still intact. I felt that I owed my dad taking care of my things because they reperesented our relationship. I had a vivid imagination, which fostered my love of art and movies and creativity. My mom encouraged me to dream and to draw and also she wanted me to have the love of God she had. I remebered not wanting to go to church as a four year old, remember the spankings and the fear of going to hell my mom and grandmother put in me. As I got older, I didn't fit in at church. When I tried to tell my mother that , she acted as if I had a lack of "loyalty" to her and to God. My father, who had calmed down in later years, basically acted as if going to church was just one of those things you just had to do. Part of the whole "loyalty" thing.My dad's favorite thing to say was "you do what you have to do." I went to church, felt unwelcome and watched the other kids smoking pot and having sex all while I tried to be "loyal" the belief system. Finally I went to a church camp, and the prettiest girl there ( I mean grown woman/playboy pretty) paid me attention. She liked me because I was different. I finally felt like my "loyalty" had paid off. God sent me the prettiest girl in the church and finally I wouldn't be alone anymore. But that wasn't the case. I called her and wrote her and was totally filled with happiness. She ended up with one of the popular "conformists" guys who did all the "popular guy" stuff. So I was heartbroken, but I stayed loyal. I ended up working in the church camps as a councelor because I wanted to "stay loyal" no matter what. And I thought maybe I'd meet another girl, maybe some girl my age would be a camp councelor for the younger kids and I'd meet someone. I had "faith" that it would work out.But it didn't. I ended up working with a guy my age who had dated my "dream girl" I met earlier. I had to hear stories about the girl I liked the whole time. And to top it off the guy was a complete dork. The kind of guy who thinks he's really hot and has all this confidence but he's actually physically ugly. He had these buck teeth and was skinny with a pot belly. He was dark, like he was half south american and half white or somthing. I guess the "tan" got him over on the girls. And it gets worse.The guy running that session of camp was a child predator. He had that "peter pan" complex, kind of like that whole Micheal Jackson thing. He was approaching thirty and would constantly hang out with groups of young boys. They's have water gun and shaving cream fights, and he's wrestle with them. He would pull boys pants down and act like it was an "accident".Everyone in my mom's church thought he was gay,but his parents were very nice people in the church. So "loyalty" to his family allowed the church to put a gay child predator in a position of running a camp with young kids. He thought I saw him and another boy fooling around. I almost walked up on somthing when I was walking the trails outside the camp, but they got themselves together before I actually "saw" anything. So he made up a story about me being rumored to be "smoking pot" at camp, and whe the final day came I was totally ousted from the camp. I was not even recognized as being a councelor. He told the church people he was afraid I'd make the camp "look bad". Now I didn't do any drugs. I did my job, and the kids had no problem with me. My "loyalty" didn't allow me to speculate that this guy was trying to bang kids. Oh I could feel it was going on, but back in the 70's and 80's people looked at outing child predators differently. You had to have a whole lot of proof. Nowdays if you accidently see a child undressed by walking past their room at the wrong time you can be accused. But back then it was all about absolute proof. People acted as if that kind of thing was rare. Especially if it was some "alleged pot somker" accusing some "prominent church member's son".Plus it would embarass my mother if I made these accusations, because his family were more important to the church than she was. She was one of those church women who taught sunday school and prepared meals and actually did "God's work". Not one of those rich people who have all the right friends and get all the credit for keeping the church in business.Church was my mom's life. So I took the humiliation. When parents day came I sat there like an idiot, while all the other kids my age I worked with went up and met the parents, and were "praised for their work with the kids". So in my heart I started to say the hell with these people. The guy ended up being a gay crossdresser who left the church anyway. He finally came out. So I just retreated into myself and developed a "loyalty" to who I was inside. I kept on lifting the weights my dad had given me at 15 years old. I felt I would be loyal and respect his gift by showing him I would get muscular and in shape. One year prior to that, my dad's sister came to stay with us. She used to be a pretty woman. Her Italian immigrant husband had those "control issues" he brought from the "old country" I guess. He beat her and took her kids away. She left New York and moved all the way to the other side of the country in San Diego. She became addicted to countless prescriptions. Now she wasn't like these "Oxycotin" junkies of today. She took everything you could imagine for "illnesses" or pain or whatever. She wasn't the kind of woman to steal or lie for drugs. She just had all these medications she felt she needed to live. She came to visit us and had a bag full of pill bottles. If you'd cough, she's offer you a pill. Yawn, offer you a pill to wake you up. She wasn't what you'd call a "drug addict" in the classic sense. She was never "high". Just medicated. I saw a sadness in her I had never seen in anyone before. A sadness a woman gets who feel she has no more options. Before she left she gave me a 3 speed bike that she didn't ride anymore. I saw her misery. I felt I owed it to her to do somthing positive with her "gift". I was a slightly overweight kid at the time. I rode her bike all summer, cahnged my diet,and lost all my "baby fat " I had as a young kid. I wrote her a letter and told her how she helped change my life with her gift. I felt a sense of loyalty to her as a person. I felt maybe she'd see she was still able to make a difference in a kid's life. So if it wasn't for loyalty, I'd proably be a fat guy or less happy person today.So loyalty paid off for me in some ways. But as I got older , I realized many people don't have the same concept of life as I do. Many people I helped out decided my help was just some sort of character flaw or weakness on my part. I worked on the good and bad sides of the track. During all these years of running and opening businesses , helping friends, being a husband and father , loyalty or lack therof has played a big part in my success and failures. But that's another article for another day.Think about these things, and have a great day...

New way to view Hollywood...

2007-04-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

I get sick of the crap put out by Hollywood and I have a right to-I watch a LOT of movies. I actually have the state record at the local video store for rentals.I'm like a "VIP"(that word makes me sick as you know) member. I have this average of 4 movies a week, sometimes 6 or even more.We also had netflix and got 4 movies at a time from them.And add that to all the stuff I watch on the internet. I got no real vices like smoking, drinking or drugs so I guess having sex with my wife, fucking with the internet,reading,working out ,art and movies are my hobbies. The only think that really costs me money is movies and the net bill. Now I can work out for an hour and still watch a movie. I know personal trainers say this isn't the way to work out but fuck 'em. I've been consistently working out for almost 23 years. I'm old now and I work my ass off in construction plus put in 5/6 hours a week of working out. So at this point the diversion isn't hurting me.Better to watch a movie lifting weights than eating cookies on the couch. I don't always do this of course, but sometimes it breaks the monotony. So the other day I'm working out and just get irritated by this stupid film. It just seems like everything in hollywood has to have a hidden agenda and the ignorant don't see it yet are influinced by it. The other people, the "don't want to see past my nose" crowd are another group. They are the biggest critics who say things are not that way, that I'm "reading too much into it". Yet these are the same people who seem to be the most brainwashed by media yet don't know it.They're also the people who are more likeley to believe a conspiracy about George Bush blowing up the WTC. Yet there's the undisputed fact that Michael Moore who made an anti Bush film and called out Haliburton , or George Sorros who owns Move on .org , the anti Bush leader BOTH own stock in the company that blame for the Iraq war.Bit there's no conspiracy here is there? No , just facts that support a dirty motherfucker. I mean after fahrenheit 9/11 talking about all the money the oil company was going to make in Iraq , wouldn't you think the stock would go up? Funny how these guy own all this stock , make these films and then still hold the stocks in the company they're bashing. But no one sees this as a "conspiracy" because these people are FILMAKERS, who are ARTISTS, and are the good honest people trying to wake us up. Film makers are seen as guiding lights because they are artists, and when an artist makes a statement it's looked at more objectively than say a politician or a relegeous leader. But I say it's time to wake up and start thinking of Hollywood in another way. Nowdays Hollywood is promoted two ways.1) films that are obviously marketing and all about money, like your Spider Mans and your Jurrasic parks , Star Wars etc. and cheezy comedies or horror films, or even disney/family stuff.A lot of these films have huge marketing tie ins, games, fast food promotions etc.in other words stuff is made for profit.or 2) the "artistic" films that are trying to be entertaining yet make a statement. Anything you want to put in these films is looked at as plausable material, and anyone who makes a statement against them is considered a prude or a person against free speech. You can have child rape, sympathy for drug dealers and users, of couse all you glorification of anything from excuses for terrorism and pushing gay lifestyles to a woman murdering their children. And the new trend is making movies about how bad Mexicans or Arabs are treated.The ONLY thing that is off limits is anything that put the Christian religeon in a positive light. I mean it's kind of silly you can's make a biblical movie about Jesus without catching hell. He was brought to the Romans by Jews to be crucified because the Jewish leadership wanted him crucified. OK , understood. Hitler order the murder of Jews, we can make a movie about him can't we? Is a Hitler film "anti' german"? Yet a film depicting Jews in the biblical account ordering the death of Jesus is considered "ANTI-SEMETIC. " I'm one the most pro-Israel guys around. I see nothing here but a story being depicted on screen.Even if you think the bible is a work of fiction, wouldn't the Jewish element give the maker of the film "artistic license" to make the film? Or should he change the Jewish characters to white males. Maybe white males who own businesses, they seem to be the only bad guys left. Same thing with making all these terrorists into Euro or Anglo or American white males. Funny how people can see a secret agenda in a guy like Mel Gibson making a Jesus film based on the bible which he did not write.And the bible is not an anti Jewish book. But they can't see an agenda in a movie like "happy feet" or "ocean's 11". Now before you say "well Gibson said stuff about Jews" well any idiot can see why that happened. He said that AFTER being run down for years for being a Jew hater because of his father. He got drunk and made a smart remark.I have a similar personality.If I was accused of somthing I didn't do(which I have been) I've gotten angry and said things to incite things becuause I hate my motives being mis judged and if people want to believe shit they will. I look at the big picture, as do many people. Christians do not hate Jews for the most part. They feel bonded with the Jews. Our nation supports Israel for this reason, we share a common origin for our beliefs and Chiristians feel Jews are their brothers. Jews have no desire to blow us up. And have these people forgotten Jesus was also born a Jew? The media simply wanted to seperate Jews and Christians because they hate the whole concept of Chritianity, they hate Israel and support Palestine, and anything that weakens that bond is fine to them. But first before I go further let me take you to a different place. A place where we open our minds and think people besides the polititians have hidden agendas and conspiracies. And top fully "get it" you have to realize that every character has a reason for being cast that way, that people's personal opinions are written into characters, the way they view the world is created by a writer. When you see a commerical where the black guy is hot and getting the (white) girl and the white guy is weak and getting a door slammed in his face, someone actually sat down and factored RACE into that. They didn't just do a casting call for guys and the black guy was the best actor. They PLAN those things. The same thing for kids shows. They portray white fathers as inferior because they're WRITTEN that way. They make gay characters the good guys because someone decided that was the way they wanted it. Think of it like pro wrestling. You already know this guy turns on this guy for the big match etc. it's easy to see it's all about character development and pushing a particular character one way or the other. But people get caught up in films , especially kid's films, and see no agenda. So let's look at a few films and break down their agendas. One of my favorite current examples is "Happy Feet". First you have a dancing penguin. You can't get more ethnic than dancing. Dancing is "owned" by minorities. When people think dancing, they think black,latin, etc. White guys are not known as the best dancers for the most part. Dancing is "cool" , it's fun and it has to do with being hot, young, modern and happy. Serious minded people are't dancers. The issue of the "stuffy religeous penguins who don't dance" is brought up. They believe in "the great wind". THis dancing penguin reminds me of all these stupid kids running around trying to be rappers or American Idols. The whole "follow your dreams no matter what" message is not for everyone. My 18 year old nephew threw his job application in trash with this same mentality. He wants to be on one of those "Pimp My Ride" shows, so he's not getting a job and beleving his dream will come true one day. I'm one of those bad guys on the disney cartoon when I tell him he needs a job. Meanwhile he'll go on to probably smoke weed and imagine the entertainment business and tell himself how Dave Chapelle and Snoop made it by smoking weed.So this penguin has found all of life's answers come from dancing. And by the end of the movie, dancing, not "the great wind" has saved the day. The whole "great wind" of course represents religeon itself. The old, non dancing penguins learn from the "wize young dancing penguin" .Their "great wind" is a lie. Dancing solves everything, faith does not. Except of course "faith in yourself" , because there is no God in the world of disney propoganda. Just a lot of pagan faries and shit.So now we come to the other message of "happy feet" , fishing is bad, it kills penguins, and dancing causes the fishing boats to leave the land of the penguins. The fishermen are the bad guys. Kids are being taught that eating fish, cows, chickens and everything else is evil.You think kids don't look at it this way but they get these messages that you're the old ass penguin and God is the great wind and fuck education I'll be a dancer/rapper/ entertainer and save the day. After years and years of movies mocking any God you can't see, and making that "old people's ways" and making entertanment the "end all" of life, kids just take it for granted that religeon is a joke for the old. Look at the movie "Babel". The mexican illegals are good, the arabs are these helpful great people, the US governent made up of white folks is bad. On the film "Fast Food Nation" the Illegals are good guys, the white business owners are bad guys using the "poor illegals" the young college Bush hating liberals are "good" . And what I really hate are these damn bank robbery/heist films where the leader of the "theft ring" has this big "no guns" policy. Of course, it's OK to rob folks as long as you don't use a gun and are a gentleman about it.Just watch "Ocean's 11", "Gone in Sixty Seconds", and a lot of older heist/robbery/theft films The communist party believes in taking guns away and doesn't belive in capatialism. This film formula came from those writers with communist backgrounds. See the funny thing is the "Hollywood Blacklist" and Joseph Mccarthy didn't get people who weren't card carrying commnuists as the re written history proclaims. Look at the details. All the people blacklisted in Hollywood were REAL COMMUNISTS who raised money for the communist party and had ties to the Soviet Union. Even Robert Redford used to sponsor film festivals in Cuba and we all know how Jane Fonda went to North Vietnam. The original Hollywood blacklist consited of writers who were trying to change America's values through film. They had a definitive plan, they had rules in place to push that agenda. Just like if you go to a job, the boss has on job rules that promote the company philiosophy. he people has the same thing, pro communist themes were forced into the films. Now those of you born in the late 70's or 80's have no understanding of what Communism is because you weren't old enough to understand "The Cold War". When I was a kid, there was the constant worry of nuclear war from communist nations, the Soviet Union was actually trying to take over the world. They put missiles in Cuba right under Florida, they tried to inflitrate South America. The problem is nowdays that there are so many communist influniced college professors and teachers that kids are told communism is this magical solution to everything. The Soviet Union collapsed because communism and socailsim doesn't work. Bush is seen as a "dictator" by today's young idiots because they're never seen a truly "evil empire" and a true super power who are really trying to take over the world. They have no clue. SO what's happened is we have a new "communist agenda" and anyone who tried to point it out will be blackballed like Senator McCarthy. Mc Carthy was right, he uncovered REAL communist, and REAL agendas in the studios in a time when people were trying to take over our country form the inside. It's a shame that so many people who understand communism/socialism/marxism feel there is no "threat" anymore. The liberals in Hollywood were always the biggest supporters. Every time Mccarthy uncovered a communist fund raiser it was always attended by Hollywood liberals, who felt they would be the "communist elite" those who would be allowed to keep their wealth in a communist state. We still at least identify liberals in this country, many of whom have communist beleifs. Funny how the liberals are still the biggest opponent of the United States and the way we are. Always talking about how we are "hated" around the world. Well look at it in a ghetto way. In ghettoisms being "hated" means the "hater" is just jealous. Maybe if these stupid kids looked everything the same way they'd get at least one fifth of what's going on. The problem is they only look at "cool issues" in a ghetto way, and "white man's issues" in the opposite way.Think abou that and have a great day..

news the liberals won't report... ACLU child porn scandal

2007-03-01T08:44:00.000-09:00

Charles Rust-Tierney, former ACLU president was caught with child porn. He was big in the fight to not restrict public internet access (wonder why) . Yet the mainstream media is letting this story be buried. If he was a preacher or a Republican, I'm sure it would be all over. He was a youth coach as well. Most of the videos are of girls being raped. The ACLU regularly defends child rapists, kept the NAMBLA website from being shut down. If you don't know what NAMBLA is , it's the North American Man/Boy Love Association. They promote child molestation.They also have tips to teach people how to cover up their crimes. Allen Ginsberg, long time anti war/communist/drug addict and liberal pollitical activist is a member. Liberals are hand in hand with the ACLU. Therefore you won't hear about this like you would the "Ted Haggard" scandal. Because Ted Haggard represents "conservatism". What about the guy who shot all those people in the mall recently, Sulejmen Talovic, an 18-year-old Bosnian immigrant. Why did most of the press keep it quiet he was a MUSLIM??? Yes he is a Muslim , just like Barak Obama (of course now Obama follows the rev. Wright and his black supremacy message so he's now affiliated with two hate groups).The same reason when John Allen Muhammad and Lee Malvo , BLACK MUSLIMS were found out to be the beltway area sniper . I PREDICTED THIS BEFORE ANYONE ELSE< I SWEAR ON MY CHILD I SAID THE SHOOTER WAS A BLACK MUSLIM FROM THE WAY THE KILLINGS TOOK PLACE.I told my co worker and father my theory and my dad told me I was nuts. But I WAS RIGHT. All you heard about is the fucking sniper , because they thought it was some white guy. Then all of the sudden when it was a BLACK MUSLIM they shut the story up. What about Vicente Ignacio Beltran-Moreno, 22, is the Illegal Mexican who kidnapped the 13 year old boy at gunpoint who escaped? They have buried the guy's status because the liberals are for open borders. Anything that disproves their agenda is buried. And I'm sure they'll do more of this in the election, as soon as the liberal democrats quit fighting amongst themselves and the media finds out who they're supposed to be behind. Think about that, and have a great day...

at least there's some good news today...and news that's not going to get reported by the liberals...

2007-03-01T04:55:00.000-09:00

Rap music sales are down 21 percent... now I read the article (click on the title link) and it says all this stuff about how many people are tired of hip hop, black people are actually blaming hip hop for negative views of black people-finally there may actually be some true leaders in the black community besides those fake ass "race pimps" like Sharpton and Jesse Jackson. The thing is, as much as I'd love to think hip hop is going down, I think it could be because of other reasons. 1) So many brothers and thugs (morons of all races who thrive in the ignorance of acting "hip hop") are now using my space to hook up with married women and the rest of the sluts on myspace, they are becoming more computer literate and thus not paying for music anymore. They discovered downloading. If you think this is a "racist" thing, think about how many sagging pants black or eminem wannabes actually used those tons of dating services in the past.If you ever went to any of the tons of "hook up" services online trying your luck at finding a date, there were hardly any "hip hop" style folks in the profiles. See those were PAY services. Match.com, eharmony, yahoo personals, etc. Maybe those who offered a free basic account, like adult friend finder , would get thier share of "thug" types. Then if you read the profiles, if was all these black guys talking about how they could satisfy women, how big their cock is , etc. Then along comes my space, where all a woman has to do to get 100 e mail friend requests a day is put up a fairly attractive picture.(or anything making you look like you have a huge bubble ass even if you're fat) The average woman on my space is bombarded with crap from shirtless black males with a ton of pictures on their my space of rims, people holding up money, and all the other "ghetto icons".The average message is always about hooking up, hollering at "shorty" or I don't care if you got a man , he don't have to know etc. But hey, maybe the upside is enough of these idiots will start going on limewire, emule and everything else stealing rap tunes that they'll bankrupt the whole hip hop record industry. Reason 2)Mostly white kids buy rap music,and maybe they're tired of watching their girlfriends dump them for someone who's really black instead of them attempting to be. Maybe they're getting sick of hip hop and realized it's slowly destroying their chances of ever having a real life. Maybe these fake kids who didn't grow up in the ghetto are longing for a better life, after realizing that ghetto ain't all that. After living in the south and seeing day in and day out women here stressing how "black" their kids are going to be(not worrying about important stuff like the baby being born healthy), then ending up with mixed kids who end up being raised by white stepfathers, all while they glamorize the "thug father" of the child. I've written post after post about white girls down here obsessed with having a biracial "trophy child" , how I can take my own biracial daughter out and her endless comments on how she is so "beautiful" because people here feel the need to acknowlege half black children as "exotic" or "special". But reality kicks in, that lust for having unprotected sex with the taboo mandingo crowd ends up in a lonley existence later on for the mother, and being a single mom is hard. No matter how Madonna and Angelina Jolie try to make having a black child seem like a modern, trendy pet, in real life eventually a real man for a father would be nice. We don't all have nannies and mansions to raise our trophy child in. What really sickens me is this: Maury Povich and other talk show idiots have paternity tests featuring black women who've already went past ten potential fathers and yet still don't know who the father is. Liberals can feel good about this because it plays into their "blacks are victims" mentality. But they never show white women in the same boat, and show haow many white women are living the same life, because then liberals would have to admit that white culture was being destroyed by the same negative aspects that destroyed the black community.Liberals paint all whites as "church going, two parent families" and therefore not going through the same "pain" as the "poor blacks" who have no choice to live like animals and need liberals to rescue them with their social programs. Yet black people are going to church, trying to raise their kids right, and they're sick of the mentality of hip hop. To admit that both black and white people are living a negative life that can be resolved better by traditional values and living right and hard work would undermine the liberals whole agenda. To them whites are "blessed and privileged" and blacks are "poor and unable to do better because of evil whites like the Republicans and Bush and the southern church folks" . Black people are supposed to have kids out of wedlock according to them, yet because of this stereotype being played out in popular culture now many whites are doing the same. WE are being taken down, both of us, black and white. And hip hop , ghetto culture is one of the things justifying this crap. Liberals are the other. Reason 3) As I started said, black people are fed up with the negative crap. While a lot of black families are busy actually trying to raise their kids right, a lot of white people are raising their kids with this "hippe white liberal guilt" crap. The tide is shifting. They're stating to get it. Black home ownership is way up under Bush. Higher than Clinton. Of course they don't want to report that FACT much but it's true. So black people are actaully realizing working and having somthing can happen even if all white people aren't exterminated from the earth. Hip Hop reminds them of a way of thinking that just doesn't work in the real world. Reason 4) Women are starting to screw Latinos as a "trend" instead of black guys . Just a few weeks ago a friend of mine was talking to a girl we know form our old club. She was saying how she "quit dating black guys because the new thing was a Latin boyfriend" . All the dancing shows, all the illegals , all the other Latin culture shit means Latinos are the new "black". Just a matter of time before the liberals drop the black people to kiss ass with the Mexicans and other folk. Regardless of the reason, let's hope that one day hip hop is just a big a joke as all those heavy metal glam bands from the 80's, and the whole disco era. Think about that and have a great day...

Guess what came home from school today...

2007-02-15T09:35:00.000-09:00

A "black history" calendar. Guess who's at the top? Barak Obama. Along with a lot of other "black leaders". Yet no Condi Rice , no Colin Powell, no one who's not a card carrying democrat or liberal African American. Funny I'd think being the first black female secretary of state would be a bigger accomplishment than being a senator for a couple of years. Surpised they didn't have Bill Clinton in the middle of those black faces, or Hillary being honored for being Bill Clinton's wife. Meanwhile Phil Bredeson is pushing higer taxes for "the children" as usual. Why, had it gotten more expensive to print Barak Obama calendars or 11 ft Martin Luther King tapistries? Why don't they just teach it's wrong to be born white PERIOD. The school system is a blatant racist hate organisation that pushed a pro (liberal) black , pro gay, anti Bush agenda. One of the boys told me how the teacher told them the army was bad. They got in trouble for playing army at recess and he said it was because his teacher said the army was bad because they hurt children. Public school is a hate crime.

Why do they even ask these questions? or "the truth about methadone"

2007-02-12T15:05:00.000-09:00

OK I'm not wasting too much time on this story-but let's talk about the Anna Nicole Smith situation. Why do people even have to wonder why it happened? It's obvious why but I'm sure the story will be covered up. There seems - so far to be no signs of OD or whatever , and there's a simple answer to that. She was on methadone because she was a heroin addict. My own mother can see it from a mile away. She experienced heroin addicts in those years we were trying to do the "right thing" by dealing with my ex wife's heroin addiction.My ex wife had the exact same weirdness, personality type, and the same "busty blonde" look as Anna Nicole Smith. My son was on methadone when he was born. She had been using during pregnancy and there was nothing I could do. The state run methadone clinics seemed to think there was nothing wrong with giving my pregnant ex wife methadone to replace her heroin.They told me it would be "child endangerment" to take her off opiates during pregnancy , that my unborn son would die.They said the methadone would not be like the heroin, and it was just a "man made" replacement. Being I myself don't use drugs and don't encourage it, I , as a sober person could see through the vast money making empire that was the methadone business. Every day I had to go to the methadone clinic, rain or shine, at 5 am . Sometimes I had closed the club at 4 am and just stayed up.I had usually worked all night and sometimes had to open the club that day at 11 am. A lot of times I only had from 5 am to 10 am to sleep. But I had to forgo sleep and stand in line with a pregnant wife and sometimes in the rain or snow so she could get her methadone.Many days we didn't get home until 8 am, and I ended up with an hour's sleep. What happens at the clinic is this: You're addicted to an opiate drug, like heroin, oxycotin, lortab,hydrocodone(same thing) moraphene,opium, whatever. Any drug that is an "opiate" or an "optoid". You can go there and wait in a huge line of about 100 or so people, so with babies in their arms barely sheltered from the rain/cold /whatever weather conditions are there. Finally it opens, and the hopeless junkies rush through the doors like a herd of dying animals.They get numbers just like at a fast food place or a DMV. When it's your turn, you go into a secure vault like room and drink a cup of liquid methadone mixed with a "kool aide" like substance. Meanwhile there is screaming and crying and threats of lawsuits every day because the angry junkies didn't pay the clinc and they get turned away. The councelors there always have this "Jerry Springer" type look. You ever see where Jerry gets this little smirk on his face as two fat women rip each other clothes off, like he's looking at them like trash but he loves the show. As if it assures him he is the superior, rational one. They look at the drug sick junkies and calmly tell them "you need to pay your methadone , we'll have to take your dose down and take you off if you don't pay." See the plan in the clinic, which is a huge lie, is to start the junkie at a high dose, and slowly lower the dose until the person's body adjusts to the loss of opiates from the receptors in the body etc. The truth is , they make the junkies go to counciling sessions which tell them how safe methadone is, and how it's nothing to be ashamed of, and how some people still use methadone in their 60's , and anything else to discourage leaving the program. And if anyone in the addict's family suggest trying to dose down or do the program as it was intended, the clinic comes at those people with both guns blazing, send the "patient" to their psyciatric doctors and councelors who suggest getting a divorce or moving to a "halfway house" or anything else to seperate the drug addict from anyone who might suggest an eventual life without methadone. MY ex wife's councelor tired to "hook her up" with various predatory black males , even going as far as to set up a special "relapse group meeting" where , guess what? My ex wife was the only person attending the meeting , along with the tall athletic black male counselor. This guy had already singled her out as a "stripper" type in a group meeting. He had his eye on her from his first day. He stood up in the meeting and said " I know some of you have sold your self for money. I have too... not to no men though." The drug councelors had to be five years clean, and he was supposedly five years clean. So he was reffering to his "drug addicted" state. He looked like a pro ball player instead of a drug addict. The whole " I sold my body for drugs (to women) was to establish himself as a "major stud" - I mean after all he was "paid for sex" - not by men of course as he said. He was eventually fired because one jaded white junkie got jealous of him hitting on so many patients. She snitched him out, and then every half attractive girl in the clinic was telling stories of how the guy was "after them". Gee hope he wasn't charging, that would have taken away some money from the methadone clinc. Probably the real reason he got fired, they were afraid some of the women might give him some money for that "award winning cock". And what's the point of all this? The reason Anna Nicole's methadone OD hasn't been solidified yet is the methadone industry is a money making venture that doesn't want a scandal. I can hear my ex wife , who after all these years is still using methadone, screaming at the TV about what an ignorant bitch Anna Nicole Smith is, because thanks to her "glorius, life giving methadone" is getting a bad name. SO think about that and have a great day...

Here's what the "hip hop community" is saying about Barak...

2007-02-11T18:57:00.000-09:00

I was looking for the "hip hop community's" view on Barak Obama. Here's a post that sums it all up, and sums up the general ignorance that prevails in the "urban world" that's so "cool" nowdays...
black people ain't gonna vote for him simply cuz we some hating ass niggas.
he won't beat hilary.
his best chance will be to run as a vp under hilary.
you gonna hear alot of talk from black folk on some..."oh, he doesn't represent me, he's a sellout, a coon, he loves them white people, he ain't hood". some real dumb shit.
niggas ran out and voted for bill clinton cuz he blew a sax on arsenio.
the only way i see obama winning is if he shows up in a jay-z video or some shit.

How true, the real heart of "Black Issues" lies right there in that statement. It's all "what you going to do for us" and "how you going to entertain me". All it takes to understand where the problems really come from in the black community is spend a little time listening to how they talk to each other. Too many of you stupid white people TELL them what and where there problems come from. And that usually begins with "how hard they've had it" and "how great Dr. King was" and how you "really think the N word is just such a bad word."Funny how they have a lot of the same problems back in Africa, except there's no United States white people or slavery to blame it on. They still sell each other , kill and rob each other, and still are in some places too lazy to even go get thier own water. They laugh at us behind, and in many cases in front of us. The stereotypes that we're supposed to say are blatantly untrue are staples of black comedians. Funny how black comedy centers a lot around negative behaviors of blacks ,negative cultural norms and bad attitudes about certain subjects. Then it's all in "good fun" because that stuff is what being truly black is "all about". When they talk about issues like job laziness , which I have encountered on a regular basis, it's all "funny" to them. But a lot of black folks I worked with who didn't sleep on breaks and come back late or abuse their power as black workers were looked at as sellouts and uncle toms. The blacks acting like "real black people" as they call it, would ridicule the black folks that tired to put in an honest days workd as if they were alowing themselves to be forced back into slavery.They acted as if "being black" meant acting in the same negative way that's joked about in the black comedy clubs. Being "hood" , "street" all this low classed shit. Why is there such an obession with a self centered low classed outlook? Barak has a long way to go to be considered a "real black man". Think about that, and have a great day...

Fuck You Neal Boortz...You are a true idiot and a disgrace to talk radio itself...

2007-02-11T18:11:00.000-09:00

I'm listening to Neil Boortz the other day and he's ranting and raving about how "the war on drugs is useless, drug addicts are only a danger to themselves, hurt no one else but themselves, they are "sick victims" etc. etc." Well FUCK YOU Boortz, you need a dose of reality. You're what sickens me about people who at one time and are accepted by uninformed liberals as conservative but you're really just a rich idiot who's detatched from reality. You're not a conservative , you're a libertarian which means you're from the "never going to win shit" party. Conservatives caught on to your silly shit and you ran away to become a "liberatarian". Kind of like the kid who forms his own club because he has such bad body odor and a shit personality no one else wants him around. Just because everyone isn't buying your stupid assed "fair tax" book that you rant like an idiot about. Do you honestly fucking think these meth and crack and heroin addicts are going to stop robbing and killing us and each other because they can suddenly get their drugs at the market? Have you ever actually dealt with a junkie? My ex wife became one. My child suffered because of it. I live across the street form a dope house, and these people would do dope there and hang out and become violent and insane no matter where their drugs came from. Of course you'd say to "move somewhere else" because like most rich detatched idiots you blame the victims of drug addicts for not having a grand "live and let live" attitude like you. I know how you got this attitude, either you or a family member is probably a drug addict, and you bought into the whole "addicts are helpless victims" crap the money making reahab system is dishing out. Or maybe you profit from a metahdone clinic. Either way you're a fool. You blame law enforcement for drug violence? You think gangs will break up because of drugs being made legal? No they'll just go to murder for hire like MS 13 and Mexican mafia gangs have done, or steal and rob or commit other crimes. But I doubt you actually know or have actually seen this type of trash in real life. These people will flood the welfare system even further, because they won't go to jail for drugs and they won't work but they'll continue their drug use. I can't stress any further what an idiot you are. Think about it ...oh I doubt you're even capable of thinking outside your own sheltered life.So fuck you...

I'm offended everyone keeps calling Barak Obama "good looking", fuck the articulate argument...

2007-02-08T17:02:00.000-09:00

As a white male I'm fed up. Why the hell does everyone call any half black man (such as Harold Ford Junior, or Barak Obama) "good looking"? There's this big contraversey because Biden and now Bush said Barak is "articulate". But they also said "good looking" or "attractive" Do you have to be a black man to be considered attractive in this country? And as far as the Biden comment about him being "clean" , well from rapper "old dirty bastard" to "dirty south" records , black people are presenting themselves as "dirty" in their media so what's wrong with calling a black man "clean"?To me, every black polititican looks like porn star Jake Steed. Jake Steed is a light skinned black man who's done porn for a long time. Also every time I see a women's show or a forum that caters to women, they talk about Barak being "good looking". They put pictures of his abs in people magazeine, and talk about how he's a sure bet on women's vote. Why? He has very limited experience, has yet to state his position on anything, all we know is he's half black with abs and been in politics a very short time. But the women surveyed have kept him inthe number 2 spot.And yet when I say white women today are obsessed with the whole "black male" image, mainly because white males have been emascualted by liberalism for the most part, I'm called insane. No conservative talk show host , Hannity, O' Reiley, or even Michael Savage or Rush have the balls to even bring this up. This is the real "culture war". Whenever a white male stands up to media or liberal sterotyping it's always attributed to "angry white male" syndrome. Yet the anger and finger pointing is usually from the other side. These rich talk show hosts are cringing little cowards whenever race is brought up.Reminds me of the same way these liberal cartoon makers will make cartoons mocking Jesus Christ or white males all day and look at it as art and look at themselves as "brave". Yet I bet those people on adult swim and Southpark would be scared to death to mock Islam in the same way. They are all brave when they attack anything from the white christian establishment, or a small religeon like scientology. But these "free speech warriors" wouldn't dare attack mohammad. Just like these know it all bastions of truth talk show hosts wouldn't dare touch the real Barak Obama issue. Obama would have SHIT for press if he wasn't black. His whole appeal is he's black and white women would screw him. That's the solid complete truth. SO think about that...

2007-02-08T15:24:00.001-09:00

more entertainment

2007-02-08T15:23:00.001-09:00

What to do if you're lost...

2007-02-08T15:12:00.000-09:00

This is my other blog...

2007-02-05T16:25:00.000-09:00

Mostly videos of things I'm checking out...

2007-01-31T18:31:00.000-09:00

The Beast In Me Video

The Beast In Me lyrics - Johnny Cash lyrics

Johnny Cash Music Videos

Music Video Codes by VideoCure

What kids are learning in public schools

2007-01-26T06:57:00.000-09:00

read my article...

the news ...some a little late...

2006-12-03T10:03:00.000-09:00

OK we've all seen the Michael Richards crap, where he was running around screaming the "N" word. Why not just go ahead and say he was saying "Nigger?" I just get sick every time somthing like this happens , and we need to open a fucking "national dialouge" about it. I mean I hear that word constantly around the BLACK community here. They think nothing of it , of course because they now "own" the word. Chris Rock can scream it , along with every other black comedian. Who really cares? That word carries no weight nowdays other than another excuse to make a black man a "victim". What about black people carrying themselves the way they do in public at times? The whole reason a black man can act the way these guys were acting is anyone who calls them on their innapropriate behavior is called a racist. Let a fat ass white guy get up and talk trash and he could probably be called a "fat ass cracker" by a black comedian and no one, not whites, not even fat people could say shit because of "racism". The whole mentality of the average brother is like this: The neighbor kid is throwing rocks at you.They keep throwing rocks. When you throw back, they run behind mommy's dress. Mommy's dress is called "racism". Not that I think Micheal Richards isn't another Hollywood liberal idiot. I mean it's funny to see these morons crying and saying how much these words "hurt" people. And how he has to cry to the "popes" of the black community, Jessie Jackson and the rest. Do these people even know any real black people? The brothers I know could give a fuck what a white man thinks. Just take your date or your wife out to the mall and see if they're worried about respecting the white man. The head jerks, the cocky looks, even sometimes they'll directly hit on a white guy's girl. And forget about it if a white guy's dating a black girl. Many times I've seen a white guy out with a hot black girl and this happens. The guy goes to the restroom, orders some food, etc. and every time a brother can approach the sister they ask " what's up with white dude? he must have money or somthing". Funny thing is if an honest brother read my articles he'd know EXACTLY the kind of black man I'm talking about. These Hollywood morons never dealt with REAL racism. That's why when you put a liberal bitch like Micheal Richards out there , he can't deal with the way a lot of black males carry themselves in public. It's great to be a bleeding heart and feel so sorry for minorities and ignore the crime rate and the other side of the story.But these Hollywood fuckers only see black people as "drug delivery systems" or a nessesary evil that needs to be coddled. You think half these liberal whites who try to protect the negative aspects of ghetto cultureism could take five minutes of the shit? They kiss ass with a lot of black people who are encouraging this negative attitude that does NOTHING but enable blacks to continue to be victims. And they can feel good about how they have "black friends". I'm sure someone will say somthing like " We need to turn this Micheal Richards thing into a positive thing and deal with this "anger" and reach out to the ever suffering black community." Why the hell do you think he said it? He was telling jokes. Some black men were doing stereotypical shit that black guys do in public BECAUSE THEY CAN. They can be loud and obnoxious and carry themselves anyway they choose because they see the average white person as weak. They see whites as pollitically fearful of saying anything to them about the way they act. They know any white person who looks remotely irritated at their bad behavior will be "put in their place" by another white person. Richards is floored by this. He thinks to himself " I have black friends. I am a liberal. I am all about loving Dr. King and crying about civil rights and the plight of the balck man. Why would these people be so mean to me? Can't they see I'm one of the good guys?" Then he's so hurt by the fact actual "real" blacks are not being nice to him. These aren't like the black people are supposed to be. Black people are only supposed to lash out at evil red state conservative whites for making them slaves. After all , aren't all southern white people in the Klu Klux Klan or somthing? These liberals think if black people are in jail it's because some white guy did them wrong and brought him to this. They see themselves "above racism". Meanwhile they continue to destroy the real black community by using "recreational drugs" etc. I know not all drugs come from black people and not all dealers are black. But no one community has suffered so much from the drug market than the black community. If you took drug out of the black community, if you destroyed their customer base ( a lot of liberal whites ) You'd give them a ral chance at equality. Most of this black crime, black on black crime, stealing and the like can be traced back to drugs. Meanwhile people are honoring self proclamed former drug peddlers who are now in the "hip hop" community. Whites and blacks alike should tell these thugs to fuck off. We need to stop taking them seriously, stop letting our kids look up to these drug peddlers, and gang members. Or these artist who are college educated blacks who went to ballet and art school who "pretend" to be "gangster rappers" who have black panther racist backgrounds (Tupac Shakur). Or how about the private school educated Christopher Wallace , AKA "Biggie Smalls". Or the pot smoking police informant "Snoop Dogg" . Maybe that "huggy bear" role on the Starsky and Hutch movie was easy for him. But I digress...the point is everyone would rather whine and cry about being offended and let the world go to hell. I was just sitting back going nuts listening to the radio, televison ,etc. and every damn 15 seconds it was somthing about gays were offended about somthing, teachers were offended, even the Hamas terrorist group was whining about being offended about somthing. Some of these folks , especially "terror groups" need to make up their minds. Are you a "terror group" or another special interest lobby? I mean dammit soon you won't be able to even call a suicide bomber a suicide bomber. It will be a like a "life-negative muslim fundamentalist crusader" or some other such garbage. Everyone is offended.Everyone but the straight white American male.When we say somthing about anything it's just called "anger" , "hate" or "racism". And I kind of find a strength in a life that I get no excuses. I supposedly have all the chances at life because I'm white. Life is supposed to be a fucking cake walk for me. And meanwhile if I do have any luck or anything good happens for me I'm supposed to give most of it back to the victims. I'm supposed to make up for my great "luck of the draw" of being white by feeling sorry for everyone who isn't a white guy. I couldn't imagine being born into a race that's being taught how much I've been screwed by life or how much the white man "owes me". No one ever thinks about how we , as white males, virtually do nothing to screw the black community , except for using or buying drugs . Some of these black leaders actually think I'm supposed to feel guilty every time I cash a paycheck, cast a vote , I'm always supposed to have their best interests in mind. Oh yeah, add that to how I'm supposed to consider the gay man's , Muslim's and every other "victims" in every move I make. Yet the "victims" are allowed to be selfish and make life all about them and their needs. Maybe if we ALL had to live that way we'd get along better. Maybe it's time to start preaching white male tolerance. Quit being a victim. I'm not. Think about it. And have a great day...

Do people actually use blogger anymore?

2006-11-13T06:20:00.000-09:00

I remember when I used to post every day, and If I took some time off people wondered where I was. I rember heated arguments, many of which were "lost" in the comments sections after republishing the blog.It seems like a lot of stuff ended up missing or deleted or whatever. I also remember that stupid "Life at TJ's" blog. That Kevin guy would write some stupid crap like " today I got a haircut from a woman. She was a beautiful woman. I always wanted to have sex with the woman who cuts my hair. Today I played golf. I work in a strip club. There is a really tough guy who works there. " then you'd see like 4000 comments form ignorant teens or whatever saying "oh my god Kevin you are the world's best writer, I feel so much like I'm there, I feel the passion of your vivid beautiful world you create in such eloquient writing". Then disaster struck. Kevin disapeared... then all these idiots were forming suicide pacts. There were hundreds of "where's Kevin" theories, people claiming they were family members and that he had died, people were looking at his blog for secret messages. Then you had the so called "Kevin experts" who in some kind of stupid assed CSI fashion suposedly found where Kevin grew up and where he worked. The thing is I doubt you could get that kind of passion from blogger people today. Even our good friend Barrie shut down or deleted "the pink bee" then still hasn't shown on her "alternate blog" for a while. They even shut down the audio blogger service. I used the hell out of that one for a while.Used to be the asian girls were all on Xanga. I learned that from some Vietnamese employees of mine who had blogs up at Xanga. Now it's all "my space" and "u tube" . I wonder if anyone reads this stuff. I had a lot of things up over time, wrote a lot of opinionated stuff that "defines" where I am at the time. Things are definitely different but still the same. Dealing with the same things differently or just trying to be comfortable with the things that aren't going the way you wished is a form of change. It just doesn't seem like change when you look out the window and it's the same scenery. But then you go back and read things you wrote or look at old pictures and then you start to notice things are different. Like getting older. You never seem to notice getting older until your thirties, and then it's from looking at a picture one day and seeing somthing you really can't explain. You just look different. You can't explain what it is. Were you happier? What is it that looks different. Maybe you look better in some ways. I know when I started this blog I was doing somthing that made me feel "not like myself". I was dropping 50 lbs. I was 235 lbs, 5'9'' but I had never quit lifting weights. I just started to feel as if I was getting a little too "bulky". I had the build of a powerlifter rather than a bodybuilder, a little bit of fat coming on but no so called "gut". I deicded I wanted to look like a male stripper. I dropped weight but then I went under 200, felt like crap , lost way too much muscle mass, and still never got that perfect "six pack" like I wanted. I had no love handles, a flat stomach, had those "lines" on both sides of the abs, but never the "look". I look at pictures I posted when I was 185 and even though I was in good shape and had good muscle tone, I just felt like it wasn't me. I posted this story before, but the point is I can look at pics from those two years I was "under 200" and tell I wasn't feeling good. I wrote about 85 percent of this blog during my "skinny" phase. Sometimes it's like I was a different person. Another thing I thought about was how I actually quit carrying a gun for about a year. Right after I left the club business. I always carried a gun. I had been shot at before , my life threatened before, and I never went anywhere without a gun or "guns". Guns were part of my identity. People knew me for my gun knowledge. SO here I am , not running a club, not carrying a gun, 50 lbs lighter. It just wasn't me. But I had to take a break from "me" . Part of it was a forced break. At least the part where I ended up without a business to run. I hadn't done a 40 hour job for years. It was all 12 hours or more all those years. Then your phone rings off the hook with questions or personal situations or whatever. I remember how the phone just got quiet one day. Now is another period. I'm back to my comfortable size. Well not as big but a little over 200 lbs and still working out 5 hours a week. My fathers work has slowed to the point I'm doing remodelling or staying home during the day. I've had more time off than I ever did in my life. It's starting to not feel like me again. Sometimes I feel useless. I worked hard my whole life. Always put in an honest day's work and then some. But now it seems people who excel in any workplace are better at selling themselves or playing politics than working. It seems to me hard work is a concept that's looked at as "old school" , Everyone is so focused on doing less work and getting more back. People who are motivated to do everything that needs to be done are used and mocked nowdays it seems. Guys who get everyone else to do it for them are getting the attention at the workplace. Guys who couldn't do the job themselves. Even happening at my fathers business. I was the guy who could handle all the trouble shooting, do all the insane shit that no one wanted to handle. He hired a lot of new guys, and one guy ended up being put "in charge" of the crew. I just ran jobs before, did what I had to do. Got it done. Now we got a guy who is good but he relies more on the others to accomplish his goals. My father can do it all, and is self reliant. I was raised that way. Yet the guys running stuff nowdays can't get it done unless conditions are met. They have to have the "right help" the "right situation" etc. and in optimal conditions they perform. And it seems those types of guys get the optimal conditions they require and get to shine. OK I understand this is a great way to do things. But what about when things go wrong? When conditions are less than perfect, then these types are the first to blame or bitch. Then guys like me who can handle it all are needed. I guess people with my mindset are mostly the guys owning the businesses. Most of my friends are business owners. Or they're in charge where they work. My problem is I got screwed when it was "my time". So now I'm just a guy who knows too much to be where I am. I'm smart and talented but I have no outlet. I have this constant desire to be "good at" somthing new. I feel like by now I should own my own business. All the money I put away, all my investments and money put into the club industry or money I had to invest ended up burnned away from divorce, dishonest partners , and just general bad luck. I never stopped working hard. I tried to "make my own luck" but I'm not good at it. Making the kind of luck I need always required a form of dishonestly I didn't feel comfortable with. When I could have taken a short road with a dishonest deal I decided "hard work" would compensate for the fact I wasn't going to do things the wrong way. Now I see so many people who cheated just a little bit here or there and still going strong. My father has what he does from hard work. He's a workaholic. But he also took a lot of shortcuts in beginning. He worked hard but had to do a little dirt here and there to make his hard work pay off. I've doen my share of "wrongs" in life. Just never anything big enough to take it to the next level. I think I'd be OK with where I am if I just knew how to play politics like a lot of people in the workplace. But I know no matter what I do I end up being the same in any work environment. 1) used up and worked hard 2) I make the guy above me look good, not myself 3) blamed when somthing goes wrong because hey, if you don't do anything you can't make a mistake can you? Then I hear these fucks saying shit about my "attitude may be bad" or I may be "burned out" when I get discouraged from not moving up. I do all the damn work, and then I get judged. All that shit is is a way for the man above you to explain why "he's the boss and you are where you are". I was the boss be default. Every time I was running shit it was mostly because no one wanted the job at the time because it required a leader who could "handle a crisis themselves". Which most so called leaders can't. They can win a popularity contest any day. Every time I was ever put in charge of anything it was when the place was in trouble. When I was a Platinum, for example it had gone down to under 15 girls and was dying. I moved back up the chain of command ONLY because the sorry ass before me finally took so much money from the place he just had to be let go. He should have never got the damn GM job to start with. He was a lazy, ignorant theif with a gambling addiction that was obvious to a 5 year old. He got the job over me for about six months. I continued to do all the work. The bookings, the advertising , the only thing he wanted to do is "check the books" after I turned in the money. He re did all the paperwork at home and I'd be at the club dealing with bullshit. He'd come in long enough to start a fight, of fire someone he didn't like, or run off business. Even though I was doing all the work, he would override anything positive I tried to do. Finally money got so bad , we were a joke, he had to go. No one wanted the job. So I finally got a chance, built us up to around 46 + girls, brought it all up and then what happens? Another "popularity contest" begins and when I have the place "running itself" everyone else wants in. Seven years wasted for nothing. Same scenario everywhere else too. I brought business up in a lot of locations and when it gets rolling I get thrown out. I had dreams of actually getting enough cash up to "buy in" or start my own place but before I can get my foot in the door the scavengers come in. I've never gotten past a 20 percent interest in any business except my website program I used to do. I owned 100 percent of that one. Then trouble with the server, heavy competiton, and I didn't have the thousands required to "stay competitive" in the market. So I sold out to a bigger company and used the money in my savings for my "new business". One disaster after another followed and I ended up without enough money again. I guess the only job for me is a job where conditions are always so bad that I can always have a place because I'm a "crisis manager". When I came back to work for my father, he had heart surgery, a bunch of employees that quit and was in a panic. I stayed with him the whole time, we had a group of guys quit and take some contractors, we had all kinds of hard times. My brother was screwing the business up too. I put up with all that crap day in and day out. Now dad has a reliable crew. I guess I'm not important on the job as I was because thee is no crisis. I want to be around for the "goods times" too. I gets me down that whenever work conditions are smooth, I end up not being needed as much. MY dad had a problem with a home owner last week so he calls me and says he needs me to handle their warranty situation. SO I guess his "good crew" can't be bothered with difficult sitautions. I remember I once worked for a printing company for dupont, and they treated me like shit. One day they bulit this machine no one wanted to run because it was so fast and the work was non stop. And to top it off the machine was a prototype, one of a kind that was computer controlled.The thing broke down or malfunctioned constantly. But when it worked it put out a hell of a lot of product. I ended up with that job, and all the undisreable employees to boot. They gave me all the people no one wanted to work with. Mostly those "militant black" types, those black people who hate white people, sneer and joke and snicker at them as if they are making fun of a "slave master" they hate. People who say "fuck you, that ain't my job" all the time. Well guess what? I ended up out producing the whole damn factory. And that's no lie. People who know me from there read this blog and know how true this is. But since every other operator couldn't fix the machine when it broke down, they started blaming me for "producing too much". Like I overworked the machine. I had the company record for product. I was doing 3 to 4 times what the other two shifts were. What thanks did I get? The machine was scrapped after about a year, I ended up with an opportunity to learn the printing business because I got transferred. But they entrusted a kiss ass who made supervisor ( who never produced shit as a worker) to find a way to get rid of me because they were paying me too much to be in training again. All the money I made them wasn't good enough for a measly extra forty or so dollars a week extra I was still getting for operator pay. They didn't demote me, my machine was shut down. So they bean counted me out, blamed it on my second job at the club. Another "victory" for hard work I guess. Maybe one day I'll be needed somewhere. I'm sure someone is screwing somthing up right now for me to deal with. Maybe I just won't fix the problem next time. Do you guys honestly think that Bush would have been re elected if the country was in good shape? He got to keep his job four more years because things were screwed up. Just like the Reagan years. The only time a presidient lost the country when it was really fucked was Jimmy Carter, because he fucked it up way too much. And Clinton won the "popularity contest" after Reagan /Bush senior fixed Carter's mess. Yet we have 8 terrorist attacks against us, the stock market bottoms out, building slows, unemployment rates way higher than now, interest rates are high, taxes are high, but Clinton stayed "popular" so no one noticed. Bush comes in,has eight months in office, it all catches up to us and now these idiots blame him. If the country is "fixed" after Bush they'll just elect a democrat to take credit and win the next popularity contest. They'll help our enemies become stronger and bog us down with "pollitical correctness" shit, and do stupid shit like Clinton did giving Iran and North Korea shit to make nukes with during his administration. As far as Clinton helping Iran and N. Korea, this is a FACT, not a conspiracy theory. A well known policy that only a few people bring up. Yet look who's stuck dealing with it? And people wonder why guys like me identify with Bush. Anyway I guess that's enough for today folks. Think about it and have a great day...

Fuck Madonna and Angelina...

2006-11-10T09:44:00.000-09:00

I'm so sick of these silly ass liberal cunts wandering off to "praise Africa" all the fucking time. Never an argument against the Africans killing Africans, unless some South African white person shoots a black guy after the savage set his farm on fire and gutted his children. These liberal celeberties are so in love with themselves they secretly begin to wallow in self hate. Then they have to reach out to anything black , brown or any entity that wants the destruction of the entire white male race. The commercial about Dafur makes me sick. "how will they judge us" it says. Well even if Bush went over there and gave them each a million dollar check, a gold manision and licked their asses clean they'd still have someone telling us it's the white man's fault and even if we all gave them all that and dropped down and commited suicide it wouldn't be enough for them. Even if after the suicide we were in the worst possible circle of hell. No we'd have to give them our souls, build a time machine and never know anything but suffering form the moment of our conception. The point is no matter what we do , these people will keep on killing each other and keep expecting the white devil evil crackers to bail them out. But Madonna just feels a warm feeling in her cunt because she saved a "black baby" and forced her totally incorrect perverted version of the Kaballah on a bunch of people. There is a price, see. Madonna has so fantasy deep down she can go to a third world country and be made into a god on a throne. Why do you think she has all these greased down gay black and latin men dancing around in her videos? He fantasy world of ruling a bunch of ignorant well hung savages. I think I should start a tourism business that allows pregnant white women to go over to Africa and drop their kids right out on the ground-the precious "soil of Africa". Let them stand up and squeeze the baby right down into the dirt, hanging by the umbillica cord. Just like some of those starving refugee women they used to show standing up dropping a baby out like an animal. Maybe that will help them lose some of their "white guilt". This whole world is fucking sick with this shit. Madonna has a pet. Many young girls here will follow suit, having their own little "african kings" here.They'll get knocked up by the nearest "african" they can find, usually a shiftless so called "thug" or other worthless entity. After the kid is born, the birth father will probably be about as accessable as the the birth father of Madonna's new pet. White kids , asian kids, all these children don't matter in the liberal world. They don't ease the "guilt" of how bad we've supposedly treated the black folks. Meanwhile I never owned a slave, never mistreated a black person but they've sure given me a lot of shit. My ancestors never owned slaves either. Yet everyone keeps on hiding behind that "racist" bullshit every time someone brings up how ignorant it is to keep on forcing people to "feel sorry" for the "victims of the white man." How much longer are we supposed to pay for shit that went on 120 fucking years ago? Think about that and have a great day.

If you're a white working class person in America there is no reason not to vote!!!

2006-11-07T06:51:00.000-09:00

I'm sick of hearing these white trash idiots talking the same old shit about the mexicans, the blacks, the gays, the high taxes, yet they don't vote on any issues because they same some lame assed "politicians are all the same anyway" etc. shit. White Americans have to pay most of the taxes in our country, that's no racism it's a statistical and easily provable fact, just like the "black leaders" constantly quote stats on how many of their people are prisons and how there must be a conspiracy from the white devils. It's black and white Americans who are losing jobs due to illegal immigration. We suffer the most. Yet most black Americans statistically vote for those who want open borders. Funny how the scare tactics they dems used in the last election still work. Republicans won.No one lost their welfare, or their social security, yet so many people vote just on those fears. There are a SHITLOAD of single moms here who have EBT cards.These are food stamp "credit cards" with an additional cash allotment from the state (about 200 bucks per "baby daddy) plus tax free food purchases that are usually around 350-500 dollars worth of food a month. When I was voting, these idiots are always there in the parking lot telling the black single moms Bush is going to "take their EBT" . DO the dems really want education? Because uneducated people and ignorant people will fall for any bullshit the news puts out to screw the republicans. No dems only want education they CONTROL, media they CONTROL. They already run the college system. The professors are mostly liberal, that's a well known fact. Dems hate fox news because it's not all one sided Bush hating. Yet I see many many liberals, democrats and "progressives" every night on fox being allowed to state their opinions. When's the last time you saw a conservative or alternate view on the other news? How can any sane person say fox is stricltly conservative, when I see so many liberal views every night? It's just that we're only supposed to hear one voice, the liberal/progressive/democrat pro Clinton pro Sorros pro Howard Dean over and over again. Sure the Republicans make mistakes, but the Democrats make me sick trying to campaign in black churches and make themselves look like they are the friend of religeous freedom all while voting for anything against the word "God" anywhere. Or saying they are for "hunting rights" when their agenda is banning all personal weapons- after all they do say the second amendment refers to the military or police , they never say there is a "hunting clause" in the second amendment, so why would they support hunters keeping weapons? This is a lie to get the so called "red neck" vote. They think rednecks have rifle racks and shotguns and don't favor handguns so it's a way to "win them over". Liberals are so out of touch with what's really going on in the south they have no idea. What about Chris Matthews on Hardball "what would these people sitting around in a roadhouse in Tennessee smoking cigarettes think about thr racist commercial blah blah... " this is he same bullshit that most liberals think. Put these libs out on the crime ridden street they've created in their gun control utopias and let them get mugged and treated like shit and then feel sorrow for the minorities trying to kill them because they're "victims" of the evil white man. These people are not livig in reality, they're seperated from it. Studies show the richer you are, the more likeley you are to be a LIBERAL.... yes folks that's the real story. Most rich, disconnected from reality people are liberals. Look at all the Hollywood trash. Ignorant self absorbed idiots all thinking they can kiss ass with Africa and say fuck the USA and it makes them a "humaitarian". If they really wanted to make a difference in Africa, it would be to create pollitical pressure on the BLACK AFRICAN WARLORDS who are causing all this shit. It's not Bush's fault some savages want to kill and starve out their own people. I guess these African warlords are no different from the Hollywood trash that are for killing their own here in the USA to benifit themselves and their rich communist friends. Hollywood people love making a fortune off ultraviolent movies , and glorifying gun violence. And also have no problem doing the drugs that arm the criminals. Yet they want to disarm the citizens. If everyone in the entire entertainment industry quit using and purchasing all drugs and refused to put guns in any of their films then maybe they'd have an argument. Why aren't they fighting to disarm the drug selling African militias that are doing the killing? If you're in Hollywood and use drugs then you're JUST AS BIG A PART OF THE PROBLEM , so shut your fucking mouth. Why is the president resposible for everything that happens in Africa, yet these drug using drug glorifying Hollywood /entertainment industry people not responsible for the killing that goes on EVERY SECOND in OUR COUNTRY due to the glorification of drugs and the drug lifestyle? How can any sane person vote for a pollitical party that's loved by these types of idiots? Think about it...and have a great day...

Kanye West fucks it up again...

2006-11-03T06:51:00.000-09:00

This idiot wins an MTV award in Europe, then crashes someone else's award for best video whining about why "he should have won". All these stupid ass magazeines that embraced him as this "intellegent articulate black man" can all go to hell now. I was right , once again. Shows you the class and "intellegence" level of the average anti-Bush idiots. I haven't written a lot lateley, because the politics are so heave there's no point in me getting all pissed off at the stupidiy. SO here's my opinion on a few current events and then I'll go. 1) Mark Foley- so he's a faggot. I thought the dems were all "pro gay". And George Sorros is ass kissing with these countries that want to drop the age of consent for a young boy to fuck a grown man to 12 years old. The dems back the ACLU, which defends the boy man love association. So what the fuck are they bitching about? Just make Foley a fucking democrat because he seems to believe in what they are into nowdays. 2) Micheal J. Fox. I don't give a fuck if he's acting or not. He's lying about the whole stem cell research issue. Stem cell reserach is legal and funded, just not that particular type of embryonic stem cell research that involves cloning. And when this is brought up all the dems ever say is so misleading crap to try and pretend it's not true but can't give details. They just go into more anti Bush crap because they know that most democrats are too lazy to give a fuck about details. 3) John Kerry and his statement. What's so different about what he says about the troops now and what he said years ago when he called them baby killers etc.? He is a bitch who has distain for the military.He's backed by Sorros who like those idiots in San Fransisco think we should have no military at all. The liberals are into some star trek type governent with no military. Study the shit that's been proposed , look at these hardcore libs saying things about how we shouldn't have a military and have open borders.There are a lot of anti military people in San Francisco who are not shy about actually saying America is bad because we have a military. That's the people who had the army recruters removed and closed down monuments.Deep down these politicians are trying to play into that hardcore base while pretending to be moderate or conservative. And as far as the joke things goes, it's obvious it wasn't a joke. And if it was about Bush, he went to Harvard so I guess Kerry doesn't count Harvard as an education. Wake up people. Democrats are against religeon, every ACLU case out there is on the other side of the subject. The dems back ever anti religeon legislation out there. Gay marriage and gay rights violate all major religeous teachings, muslim , jew, buddist, christian, etc. They think a "seperation of church and state" means somthing different than it meant to the people who founded the country. These same founding fathers but "in God we trust" on the money , and laws were based on christian values. The seperation thing was so the state didn't recognize or endorse a particular denomination, like the baptists or the catholic church. It's obvious because if they truly wanted a totally Godless based country they wouldn't have used the word God in so many documents and engrained it so much in our system.The dems have no problem looking at specifics when it comes to gun control. Another "re writing of history" they say the founding fathers only wanted the military to have guns. Why didn't anyone every start taking them away then? Plenty of countries supposedly took everyones guns according to Micheal Moore and the liberals.The reason this didn't happen is that that wasn't the intention of the founders of our country. They wanted men to be free to defend themselves and their country. Then they want less and less punishment for drug dealers. Ever time there's a drug dealer with a so called "unfair" sentence, the liberals are lining up to help them. George Sorros wants to decriminalize drugs.He's all for total legalization. Dems don't beleive in the death penalty. Time after time they've back legislation to lower the punishment of criminals. Let's look at the real reason this stuff started in the first place. No one said shit about gun control, gays, drug legalization, etc. until after the 60's. Why? because the hippies and druggies were protesting Vietnam, running to Canada, and becoming pacifists who thought guns were bad. They also thought drugs were good, and a right everyone should have. There was a drug revolution in America. Then these people of course grew up in a culture that loved drugs, so they felt sorry for the dope man. They identified with him. Then psychiatry was created to explain all ellicit behavior that came from the drug glory days . People doing drugs and having "free love" and living a carless life created a lot of crazy shit in society. Psychiatry makes everything into a disease that's out of the person's control. Drug addiction is no longer the fault of the person taking the drugs. The "free love" and sexual experimentation caused people to identify with gays , and molesters were explained away by the shrinks.Aborition wasn't an issue until all these women who were fucking around in the "free love" years were getting unwanted pregnancies. Then the dems started more and more give aways to minorities , even though most dems voted against laws helping the black man to have rights back in the 60's. The feel they own the minority vote because they control the system that so many minorities rely on to live. They used the welfare system to gain power.Bill Clinton came to us with "pollitical correctness" while kissing ass with the growing drug epidemic that came from their glorious welfare programs. The democrats are for high taxes to fund their "social programs". These programs are under their control , which makes them more powerful and the average person less powerful over their destiny. The dems are endorsed by socilaists and communists world wide. They are against capitalism. Any hardcore college student today is being taught these values which include talking about and studying how bad capitalism is and how socialism is better. Why? The hippies, if you remember were about communal living and socialism. Their "pretend" socialism seemed great when they were living in one crowded house, sharing the dope. They still had all the rights and privelges of our capitalist society.They couldn't handle true communism or socialism. That 's also the reason the democrats today are so in love with Fidel Castro, or speak of how great the socialsm spereading through Europe is so great.Anyone who questions the machine is made into a racist or whatever by the "pollitical correctness" trap the democrats invented to shut anyone up who doensn't believe what they do.The democrats today are not the same party after the 60's.It's the dems right to be what they want. They should just quit packaging themselves as somthing else. Have the courage to admit you're for the agnostic, the atheiest, the child molester, the drug dealer, the murder, and against capitalism. If they simply presented their views, only the hardcore and brainwashed college kids with no life experience would vote for them. Let these college kids experience socialism now. Take fifty percent of their spending money and take their credit cards and see how they love socialism now. Democrats take advantage of the loyalty to the party they used to be, the uneducated and the welfare recipient. They scare old people that's they'll lose their social security. Even thought Bush or the Republicans haven't taken it. They scare minorities they'll lose their welfare. Has Bush taken that ? They paint the Republican party as the party of the rich. Yet do you honestly think the democrats are all middle classed hard working people? All polititians are rich. You have to be rich to be in politics. The so called "tax cuts for the rich" are bullshit. I am not rich and I'm benefitting from these tax cuts. Liberals and "progressives" think all rich people should't have over 15 million dollars, and their money above this should be taken by the governement. They want to take 60 percent of their income. (or more). Yet many promininent democrats have their money in other countries , like George Sorros , to avoid taxes. Rich people still pay a way larger percentage than anyone else in this country. It's just a fact. They pay way higher tax rates. If you don't understand this you're either just a jealous person or actually believe all this socialist crap. Do you honestly think the rich don't pay a higher percentage of their income than a lower income person? And without the rich there are no businesses for everyone else. That's how capitalism works. Everyone is not equal as far as income goes. This could be due to hard work or just being born with it. That's just life. Some people are better looking than you, some people have more money, some people have more advantages. If you're not attractive enough then do the best with what you have or get plastic surgery.If you want more money work and do what you can but even then it may not happen for you. Be happy if you're able to eat well and pay your bills and take care of your family.If you can't accept life as it is then move to a communist or socialist country. Then you can see the failures of these so called "utopias" . The problem is , colleges are teaching these kids today all this garbage that won't fly in the real word. They try to push the pollitical correctness and affermative action crap but in the long run the realities of capitalism will kick in.The world is not fair. Just ask Kanye West... Think about that. Have a great day...

2006-10-12T15:48:00.000-08:00

happy halloween everybody...

Even though I'm not posting much latley...

2006-08-26T23:00:00.000-08:00

I still did a little redesign of the site. Just wanted to make things look a little nicer here. In case someone comes by to read my old stories...

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hello

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just a post to let you know i'm still alive...

2006-07-14T14:06:00.000-08:00

it's me again

Come Visit Me Here...

2006-07-11T17:56:00.000-08:00

I'm still around on my space, along with the wife... SO... come over and see us sometimes...

2006-07-10T17:00:00.000-08:00

my beautiful wife again...

2006-07-10T16:59:00.000-08:00

current picture of me...

I never really made a formal announcement...

2006-07-10T14:47:00.000-08:00

After 1025 posts, and since may 30th 2004, 3 years ago, I have posted audio and wrote politically incorrect opinions and argued with fellow bloggers and made a few friends and enemies and put up stupid pictures. I have taken a lot of time off here and there. Things are just going here, I'm still me. My wife and kids are still here, we've had a lot of people coming and going, stepchildren in for visitation, my father in law, a shitzu that went back home, six new kittens, two more cats (now we have 3 adults and 3 kittens left) just a lot of upturned situations. I've fought a few battles here and there. I still like Bush, still deal with ghettoism and negative shit. My old strip club has been taken over by more competent people. Shawn and Gavin still have menages club, where my wife is still bartender. I still help out a little. I'm out of the club business, but now I have a little more credibility and respect because two of my biggest detractors have been dealt with. I get a lot of love when I walk in a place I used to work. Nowdays I'm just a guy who tells stories about the "good old days" , and can say that most of the people running a lot of clubs or working in them started out with me. I tell the stories better than they do. I think that's why some folks like seeing me around, they told stories that were probably dismissed as bullshit until I came back around and confirmed them. Sometimes I feel like it's all over for me having a career that affords any "recognition". I sometimes hate telling stories and being and entertainer inthese situations because I feel nowdays I have no more stories to tell. I like being a dad , husband, etc. but the money and actually being "good" at somthing kind of seems like somthing that's just another story. I'm not broke. Just lacking that "goal" of moving up. I spent so damn long always thinking my hard work was going to pay off. I thought I'd make enough money without stealing my ass off like most of those people who surpassed me. I was wrong. If I would have exploited people or sold drugs to my employees or just done one damn thing I wasn't supposed to, I would be master of my environment by now. It is a shitty way to think , I know. But I look at REALITY. I payed attention to those who have what I was working for an most all of them are theives or those who took the "wrong" or "easy" path. SO I try to put that negative crap aside, pick myself up and continue on. I still have my little side things I do, plus I'm still working for my father. I'm pretty good at that too. I always put 100 percent into any of my work. I just sometimes wish I had somthing to shoot for that would bring in the "big money". Anyone who thinks pursuit of money is not a good thing must not have kids or ambition or a desire to improve the quality in which you live. Don't get me wrong, I know lots of fucked up rich people. I just think I've taken it as far as I can in "middle income" land and am totally ready to move up. I just have no direction at the moment. Furthering education is the favorite subject of the inexperienced at life when it comes to "moving up" in life. I have a mortgage to pay, reponsibilities, what the fuck would I go to school at this point for? Business? fuck . I 've already ben running succesful places for years now. Just never made enough to get controling interest. If I could get a loan for school, I'd be better off getting a loan for somthing I already know how to do instead of pushing myslef and losing my house while having a pipe dream of "when I get out of school I'll make this big money" well those are dreams of the spoiled and ignorant and inexperieced. I watch too many people never use thieir education as anything other than a basis of trust. In other words looking good enough to get a loan because they have an educational background, or getting folks to take them seriously because they are supposed to be "smart" . Meanwhile they invest in places I run, and know shit about real life. I make them rich, and then they hire out little college idiots like them and call me a wop or a "street smart guy" who's no longer fit to run their business after I've had to teach them how. Yeah I'll bet a mid thirties guy like me with an online degree or a degree from a state school really makes an impressive resume. Especially if I put in all the strip clubs I've run and porn stars I've booked and how about telling them about my phone sex business or sites selling porn, or running an after hours club or massage parlor, and then how about how I've worked construction as a residential electrician as well, or done graphics for a concert shirt company. Then how about picking up gambling slips off of assholes for extra money? I would look like a fucking joke. I'm the kind of guy who has to manufacture his own luck. Things are OK for me here. It's just that the "adventure movie" is over on this end. I have nothing left but old ass stories. Or I could bitch about mexicans and politics or whatever. But what's the point anymore? Plenty of folks do that shit better than I can. SO I'd have to say for now, this is the end of my story, unless somthing changes on my end. Things have turned around for a lot of folks here on the internet. Look at Barrie, she met a guy. She's dating , moving foward , great. And she hardly puts anything on her blog anymore because she's busy. Maybe I'll come in every now and then. I've just spent more time on working out, self improvement and watching movies, doing stuff with the wife an kids, etc. Me and the wife still love each other. Anniversary coming up. I guess I'll put up some pictures after this, maybe for old time's sake.I'm on myspace , anthony grieco,look me up. Some of my old employees are on my friends list. I guess this is time for the credits to roll. You guys take care, have a great life. And just think about that...

why i put up those pictures...

2006-05-21T16:06:00.000-08:00

OK as I've said before I decided about 4 years ago I wanted to be "cut". I did the cardio, trying to lose all my excess bodyfat and get my fat down low enough to see abs. Now most people just don't get it. Ever see a skinny guy who never lifted a weight in his life with abs? The REAL reason people have abs is not crunches or situps, it's body fat percentage. Now ab exercises help "pronounce" the abs and make them more defined. But the real reason they show is people have 10 percent bodyfat or lower. Now my abs are strong, I do twists with 30 lb medicine balls and 45 lb weights on my chest. But my bodyfat stays at 12-15 percent, which is great for a guy my age but not enough to see all the abs. So I got down to 185, looked lean and muscular, but people started saying I "must be on drugs" or some other bullshit. Mostly because I lost 50 lbs but also a lot of muscle size with it. Coupled with a divorce a few years ago and getting out of the business, people acted as if I'd "gone downhill". Well I'm still here. My wife like s me over 200 so I think I'll just be comfortable and get old, all while trying to be the best I can for my age ( hopefully a little better). I will say this, the diet and nutrition and exercise has gotten me through a lot of hard times. I helped me stay focused. SO maybe you folks out there having divorces, job losses etc. could try talking better care of YOU nowdays. It might help. I got a great wife and family and I'm still paying the house note. SO I might end up OK. Think about it and have a great day...

2006-05-21T16:05:00.000-08:00

I feel more like myself again. Some people aren't meant to be under 200 lbs. I guess looking like an underwear model isn't going to happen for me...

2006-05-21T16:02:00.000-08:00

me back at 210... don't know if I'll ever do 235 again...

The story as of now...

2006-05-17T15:56:00.000-08:00

People have asked me about the "new club" ...At this time everything is g4 classified...It's my friend's project and I'm not involved. Let me make it clear how uninvolved I am in this club. All I've done as far as this place is concerned is pick up some lumber piles out of the rain to help the guys out, and I've seen the bulding in a couple of stages. I know there are a lot of plans, and the new club isn't going to be in a familiar format from what I hear. These guys want to try to pick up some new type of business. Last club I did demolition,took all the torn down stuff out of the doors, wired stage lights, helped with the framing and did any general thing that needed to be done. Yet people with short memories tend to say "I never drove one nail at menages club" in mixed company to try to downplay any remenants of so called "credit" I may get for being a part of a successful business. I think it's a mite disrespectful to put down a man who was responsible for running an after hours club, helping with menages and flashdancers as well as being at Mr. Van horn's beck and call 24/7 as well as cleaning up a building all by myself after 2 clubs and several hundred people. Also standing up to the thugs who tried to put us out of business and never backing down from the fight as some others did. I've always looked out for my people, still call my ex employees when they go through death , divorces , job losses etc. I put the business first and it was my last "club running" gig. Yet I still do things and handle problems for my friends every week. My wife has a great job at the place and that's great. I apprieciate that. Just wish certain people wouldn't try to downplay me to people to look "cool" or whatever the kids are about nowdays...I never run down my friends, do the right thing and never stole or lied to people I was in business with. I see thieves, liars and drug peddlers getting ahead in the club business every day. I've been around for almost 22 years, from cleaning club floors before I was old enough to even go in during business hours to being a general manager or actually having a small piece of a business but never owning it completely. That's always been the problem. I get a small enough piece to make a good income but never enough to buy the whole place. Before I can get up the funds, some asshole pushes me out the door. At least I tell the truth. You got 100 guys in this town NEVER owned shit that STILL have people fooled that they owned this or that place. I did a lot of shit in my industry. I booked the feature acts, worked for the production companies that made the adult films, did the artwork for the box designs and of course ran the businesses day to day.Even ran a little escort/ massage stuff when I was really hurting for money.Didn't like the environment. Too much of a conscience. I did most of my own ads and artwork, or consulted with shawn and we came up with concepts together. Handled everyone myself when I ran the places. I dealt with everyone on a personal basis. When I worked for "the boys", I drove their cars, picked up their money and food, watched their back & took care of everything. I've always been responsible. Back in the old days I picked up gambling slips, sold guns (decided to stop that when kids started getting a hold of too much stuff), put a little money in my friends "film projects" and I had some website stuff, a dating service and a porn movie site which I sold. I used to have some of those 900 number things, I paid for the ads and the numbers and the service industry hired the people for the phones. I hustled around a little to "make it". I always did a little electrical work or computer stuff on the side to make some extra cash. Always worked hard. Every business I dealt with, I tried to be responsible and do the right thing, never took the shortcuts. Nowdays I just do the "legit" thing and of course make a lot less money. Thing is, I can go around the country and know someone anywhere I go from my "adventures". I have tons of pictures, have all the scars. Yet I see these lying fuckers taking about all the shit they "run" or "own", or how many celeberties they know. Sorry , if you really actually "met" these people, I mean not from the crowd watching them walk by but actually seeing them up close and personal, you wouldn't be impressed. I've seen a lot lot of "celeberties" and they usually are just as ignorant and low classed as anyone else. Wasn't impressed with most so called famous people I've met. Just another self absorbed asshole. Maybe a few folks have been nice. For the most part celeberties I've seen in the situations I'm in at the time are in a mindless party atmosphere. In those cases I'm usually on the serious or "business" side of the "party". I have no idea why any female would be impressed by a guy lying about being a club owner and hanging with celeberties all while slamming down drugs. And then using the drugs to get attention off the woman. Even if a hot chick is a dope addict, I still don't get why they'd even hang with half the losers out there. Of course I know a lot of junkies and they could care less the trash they hang with. That to me is the worst part of drug addiction, hanging with idiots you'd never associate with otherwise. I was the guy who kept clean and hung out with co workers and watched the ignorace as they all got fucked up on dope. These people would kiss each other's ass , knowing damn well they all hated each other. So pathetic to me. Anyway, I guess that's enough reality for today. You guys think about it all and have a great day...

I'm still around...

2006-05-13T10:26:00.000-08:00

What's the news Mr. Grieco? I just quit doing this thing a while. Since I "took off" , lots of stuff has happened. I have been training my ass off, weighing about 210 lbs. I decided I felt better over 200 lbs.Trying to be lean and cut and 185-190 just isn't me I guess. I never quit working out, just turned my diet back up, ate more protein and calories and put on some more mass on. While I spent years at 220 lbs to 235, I don't think I can get that size again. I'm too old I guess, or not willing to juice myself up to the degree of getting 230 and over. When you get in your late 30's, over 20 years of weightlifting takes it's toll, and your "gentic potential" kinda takes a hit. But I look good, feel good, wife got me some "tanning visits". I was scared to go. I've taking countless employees to tanning over ther years in the strip/adult/feature business, but I myself have never used a tanning bed until last week. Felt kind of like a "girlie" thing to do, but my wife looks good and I want to look good for her too, so I gave it a try. I got a little burned so far but I think I can get a decent tan by the time the month is over. On the "club business" front, shawn and peter just bought another place, right up the street from menages club. I'm sure it will do well, I'm totally sitting this one out. I guess I will watch my friends move on , maybe they'll do even better. Funny thing is , as much as I tell people I'm out, certain assholes try to make up stories I'm going around town saying I'm a "club owner" , implying I am taking credit for the new project. Of course I'm going to promote my friends, but I don't lie about owning shit I don't own, like half of the assholes in this "town of fake owners" do. I'm taking about YOU ...Mr. "myspace "VIP" you guys know who "Mr. VIP" is if you live in Nashville. His my space page made me fucking sick. This idiot has never owned SHIT in this town. Just handed out drugs to naive girls and lied to them. And he needs to learn how to put on his mascara properly. He looks like a methed out Barbara Streisand. I read an article about how they're trying to make people leave their pit bulls at home and keep them out of the parks here. I've heard all this "not bad breeds , bad owners" bullshit. Now when a person carries a handgun, at least they admit why. These pit bull owners know damn good and fucking well why they have those dogs. It's not because they're fucking cute. It's the "intimidation factor" . When people have pits around, it invokes a certain fear or image of the dog that the owners thrive on. Have your fucking dogs, I could give a fuck. Just don't try and justify what the breed is designed for. Drug dealers all around here carry them around for intimidation.
You people prance your attack dogs around like "look at me and my bad ass dog" then when someone buys that shit and says somthing about it you back the fuck down and make the dogs out to be fucking snoopy on Charlie Brown. That's like going to a car show where cars have built out the ass to do over 100 mph, then a cop comes by the show everyone starts looking at the ground shuffling their feet saying the bigger engines are only in the cars because they're fuel efficient. (bullshit of course) ... on another front, finally someone realized a fat drunk idiot can't run a business after six years of struggling and blaming me... went by and my old club looked great, nice artwork everywhere, Joe Savage was really happy to be back and show me around, and the place looked like my old club. More girls , just like I used to run, and the crowd seemed good although I didn't stay in the club long. I went to the office , where it was cleaned up and nice, a budda display on the wall, and that fucking god awful map was gone...I remember when all my artwork was pulled down and destroyed for a stupid ass map of the world to be put up. I hope no one in this town is ignorant enough to hire this shitbag again. I think my old club is going to be great again, they are actually talking about taking the format into the next level of the industry. I just love to see my work being continued by capable people rather than torn down by rucker clones who've never had one original thought. Hopefully the Rucker era is coming to a close. One more manager to go and it's O-V-E-R fuckers!!!Think about that and have a great day...maybe I'll be back , maybe I won't , who knows...

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looks like my old club got hit...

2006-02-02T16:30:00.000-09:00

The idiots at Platinum abused their good luck a little too long. They're been cited twice now. I really hope they go the fuck under. And I hope the idiot can't find a job and has to leave the state forever.

2006-02-02T16:25:00.000-09:00

http://tennessean.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20060201/NEWS0202/602010404

2006-01-26T19:58:00.000-09:00

madonna nowdays...a picture from matt drudge showing what madonna looks like without all the airbrushing...

More stupid fuckers...

2006-01-26T15:18:00.000-09:00

OK now today my wife reads strip club list and yet again my name gets brought up. Fuck em. Talk about my eyebrows, calling me a "guy on steroids who carries a lot of guns around" etc. in other words a lot of crap. Now I'm pretty sure two extremely fat unhappy guys are writing this shit. One in particular who threatens to "kill me" all the time yet he's a fat bitch who goes around lying about pussy he never got. Go ahead fat boy, I hope you're reading this. Why don't you do your usual bitch shit and threaten to "sue" me ? Yeah fat ass , you can threaten to kill someone for three years but let someone call you on your lies and you throw a tauntrum like the fat little baby you are. Why don't you pull that raggedy ass gun you bought off a state trooper who ripped it off in a traffic stop? I guess you think you and your stolen gun are gonna do somthing. Well fat ass either come after me or SHUT THE FUCK UP. Keep lying about the "company" you own too. I've had better men than you ( not that I'd EVER consider you a man) come after me. Here I am , I take care of my family , work hard and people like you gossip and bitch and whine until someone as ignorant as you comes around who has the power to cause me a problem. Then when I fight back you cry. I WORKED for all my positions and interests I ever had in these fucking clubs. I didn't just walk the fuck into it. Then guys like you come around and do some handyman bullshit and tell everyone you "own" the fucking club. I know your type. If I ever fought you man to (LOL) "man" , you'd go screaming to the cops and press assault charges. You talk a big "tough guy" line then you threaten lawsuits and when I'm not around you threaten to kill me. You insult all the women around you and act repulsive and wonder why you get rejected. You CLAIM to have fucked one of my exes, you BRAG and BRAG about it , then when her man finds out about your shit talking , you say I'm the one who said it. Yet I know YOU'RE LYING about it, and would never even think claiming you fucked any woman I had would even be a remotely feasable lie. Why the hell would I tell anyone any women I'd been with would touch your fat greasy ass? YOU however lie about screwing a LOT of you "friends" or "former friends" women. Man you're a REALLY HONORABLE GUY. Bragging about fucking you buddies wife/girlfriends etc. Then when someone else figures you out , a guy I've known 13 years tells me the same tired old story about you and I say "yeah he's said that kind of shit about me too" WHICH I HAVE THE ABSOLUTE RIGHT TO SAY - BECAUSE YOU SAID IT IN FRONT OF ME _ you act like "I" told him the whole scenario. You're an idiot. Take me to court. What's your case? I corrected you because you were claiming to have fucked my girlfriend in front of my best friend? I HAVE THE LAWSUIT BUDDY. Good thing for you I'm not that type of man who threatens to "sue" like a bitch. You made derogatory comments to 3 of my employers , insulted my wife by claiming that you would offer her money for sex to prove she's fuck you for money (WHICH SHE DID NOT DO OF COURSE) and threatened my life on numerous occasions. You got caught taking a bottle of prescription drugs to a woman claiming you'd "get laid" - GO TELL THAT SOB STORY TO A JUDGE ASSHOLE."Your honor, I uh this guy got mad at me for lying about fucking his girl, then he told a guy I was not a nice person for trying to hook his girlfriend up with prescription drugs." FUCK YOU FAT BOY. Stay the FUCK AWAY FROM MY WIFE AND MY FAMILY .
Think about that...

2006-01-24T17:08:00.000-09:00

I told you guys Kanye West is a piece of shit... now he's parading as "Christ" ... wonder if a white person mocked budda or Allah how long it would take to take them down???

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KEEP NEW ORLEANS CHOCOLATE!!!

2006-01-18T10:08:00.000-09:00

Ray Nagin, another racist piece of shit. Heard his speech yet? My favorite line is this one"We ask black people: it's time. It's time for us to come together. It's time for us to rebuild a New Orleans, the one that should be a chocolate New Orleans. And I don't care what people are saying Uptown or wherever they are. This city will be chocolate at the end of the day." well what if a WHITE polititian said
"we as white people , it's time.It's time for us to come together. It's time for us to rebuild a (insert your city name here), the one that should be a vanilla (insert your city name here). And I don't care what people are saying Uptown or wherever they are. This city will be vanilla white at the end of the day."
They would be called the next hitler , a racist ,a white supremist, whatever other crap they could throw at us. I'm so fucking sick of black hate speech and racial inequality in the workplaces of America, where supervisor jobs are given to people not based on qualifications but the color (dark color) of their skin and nowdays the ability to fuck one's own sex is also now a precedent for "moving up". When any gay or black person speaks, their views and opinions are always justified , never suspect to "personal gain" issues , but when a white man speaks there must be "an agenda" or "money" involved. Yet don't think for one minute Jessie Jackson isn't getting fucking paid. Now the new people for blacks to hate on is the Mexicans. I hear more and more blacks talking shit about Mexicans in a hate filled jealous tone. Why? Mostly because they're afraid Mexicans will take "they benefits" . I heard at least six black welfare queens around my neighborhood bitching about losing their welfare and health care and food stamps because "mexicans was gonna rob the system." See all these black folks on "goverment assistance" feel this shit belongs to them. I've seen them even hating on a white girl with a food stamp card .(they're called EBT cards here) The fat black cashier and the fat black woman in front of me were talking shit as the slutty looking skinny white girl twisted her ass out the door .( trying to stick her ass out like she had one)The black women were roling their eyes and saying "yeah she don't even need that money, she probably got parents at home" the other lady said "yeah dat's the type always trying to take somebody black man at home ,da type them brothers always giving babies to." This fat black bitch had like 500 bucks worth of cookies, ribs , pork , junk food , root beer, hot dogs and potato chips and every processd junk food on the planet, all bought on the government's money. Meanwhile I'm buying 80 bucks worth of chicken , fish, vegtables and other healthy foods. I have more real food than she does. This leads to another argument I get sick of . "PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN POVERTY CANNOT EAT AS HEALTHY AS RICH PEOPLE." or " EATING HEALTHY IS TOO EXPENSIVE FOR BLACK PEOPLE" BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1) most so called "poverty level blacks" WON'T EAT HEALTHY. BECAUSE THEY CHOOSE NOT TO. The average black welfare family where I live gets 500 or more bucks worth of food stamps plus 200 dollars cash on the card called "families first" program. Now here in my state I have to pay almost 10 percent tax on groceries!!! Yet there's no tax on food stamps of course. But I eat fruits and vegatbles and clean meats. Canned vegtables average 50 cents to 80 cents a can. Yes of course you can't eat so called "healthy" if you're talking about higher priced "low fat cookies" or "diet potato chips" or "low carb white bread" FUCKING GIMMICK FOOD IS NOT HEALTH FOOD!!!If these morons would stick with the basic foods and learn to eat basic foods instead of processed bread based crackers cookies and junk, they would be able to eat MUCH CHEAPER. True healthy eating is cheaper than eating crap. Yet whenever the rate of black heart disease goes up, some ignorant liberal blames it on "education" or "poverty". And that's another thing. I'm sick of everyone saying " the answer to this problem and that problem is EDUCATION" BULLSHIT!!! These fucking kids nowdays DON'T WANT TO BE EDUCATED because all their heroes are rappers and sport stars and drug dealers who brag about getting rich without an education. These kids think selling drugs to "finance an album" or backstabbing someone on a reality show or stealing and lying is the real WINNER'S way to do shit. What does it mean when a sports hero, who is just doing his community service for his recent DUI comes on TV and says " kids stay in school and don't take drugs" yet kids know this guy is just riding off a jail sentence or fine. Do we think kids are that stupid? The schools don't work because THE KIDS DON'T WANT TO LEARN. And if say a BLACK CHILD wants to learn he's called a "SELLOUT" or he's "ACTING WHITE" or even an "UNCLE TOM" . I mean what can we expect? LOOK AT THE FUCKING DEMOCRAT LIBERALS DRAWING CARTOONS OF CONDI RICE PORTRAYED AS A MONKEY? OR BLACK LIBERALS CALLING COLLEN POWELL A "HOUSE NIGGER"? And we expect black kids to see being educated as a good thing? THE REASON OUT SCHOOLS ARE FAILING IS GHETTO CULTURE. It's not "hip hop" or "ghetto" or "thug" or "black" enough so they don't want it. Just look at the music" I need a soldier" (reffering to thugged out men as "soldiers" who get them pregnant ) or what about black eyed peas "my humps" ,
"I drive these brothers crazy,
I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely,
They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and NaDonna
Karan they be sharin’
All their money got me wearin fly , whether I ain’t askin,
They say they love my ass ‘n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion,
I say no, but they keep givin’
So I keep on takin’
And no I ain’t takin’
We can keep on datin’
Now keep on demonstrating. "

Yeah now there's some modern values for the kids - drive a black man crazy ( the singer is a white woman) and get as much material stuff as you can from them by using your sexuality (where's the education used there?)
or how about this line-

"I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
and mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight "

OK the singer of this line is a black male, talking to a white female about mixing "her milk wit his cocoa puff"
This of course is a call out for interracial sex because of course the almighty BLACK MALE is the most desirable.
So what's my point? I heard six year old girls playing barbies singing this song. The girls are gettingt he message to fuck black guys for material things , the boys get the message that to be a black man is to be desirable, so the little girls want to be sluts with enough ass to hook a brother, and the boys want to be a brother with a lot of money (of course from drug deals or album sales or both) AND YOU PEOPLE WONDER WHY WHITE KIDS DRESS LIKE GHETTO FOLK. The whole portrayal of blacks as impoverished , uneducated (happily uneducated) thugs and then the portrayal that the girls all want that is why kids of all races attempt to be this stereotype. It's not just the fat white girls anymore folks!!! (if you're white then you get that line) You people think spongebob and snoop dog and all that shit is great and harmless entertainment.Yesterday I was listening to the black radio station morning show ( I want to know what they're thinking, and usually Doug Banks isn't thinking at all) and they spoke of how a black female celeberty was dating a "white dude" . The female on the show said "she couldn't get mad at her because she'd had so much trouble with black men" WHY THE FUCK COULD SHE GET MAD ANYWAY? IT'S NOT LIKE BLACK GUYS AREN'T THROWNING AWAY BLACK WOMEN FOR WHITE GIRLS EVER DAY !!! But of course there was the usual commentary about how the white guy "must have money" etc. Because whenever someone "GOES WHITE" (even white women on white men ) there must be an "EXPLAINATION" Like the woman has been hurt by a black man, or she wants to "come up" (meaning she wants finacial resources that she hasn't found with black males) When I hear how black men have "LOW SELF ESTEEM" I wanna puke. There's this underlying thing that balck men are superior lovers who are so much better at pleasing women and getting into their hearts and head that every time a woman doesn't have a black man there's no way it's legit. It's in the attitude, the average brother here who hits up your girl gives a fuck about a wedding ring etc. They always come across like if your woman isn't with a brother she's "missing somthing" in her life. And they're always around to deliver. Anyway fuck it. I hope someone out here reads this and says" hey that guy is right on the money" . No one seems to have the courage to tell it like it is. Anyone who tries is subjected to the same old tired broken record shit of "racist, hate speech , ignorant , you can't understand the struggle of the black man , etc." bullshit. I'M TELLING YOU TODAY - THIS "STRUGGLE" IS BEING CREATED BY THE IGNORANT GHETTO HIP HOP CULTURAL WAY OF SEEING THINGS. And it's all a big lie. I don't buy it. Now think about that...

2006-01-16T17:25:00.000-09:00

Us, around Xmas...

2006-01-16T16:43:00.000-09:00

Kanye West in concert...

Mother fuckers I am back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-16T14:56:00.000-09:00

I'm back. Where did I go? I left to concentrate on other shit for a while. I'm still pissed off. About lots of shit.I haven't quit paying attention, not for one minute. Every day I have seen things that have made me want to come back here and put it out there. But I decided to let it ride. I took a break, went through thanksgiving and christmas and new years. I saw children's shows and toys that pissed me off. Then there are the liberals like peta and the black racists that are passing off hate speech by accusing anyone who doesn't call them a genius a "racist". Then there's fucking "Kwanzaa" bullshit being forced down the kid's throats at school. Let's start on some of the first issues that have happened since I've been gone and give you the scoop...

1) Harriet Myers
when I left the "blog world" this was a big issue. Conservatives were bitching and whining and the shitbag liberals were loving it. Well guess the fuck what? IT WAS ALL A SCAM...
I just fucking wish I would have explained it here before it played out (I did tell everyone around me at the time what Bush's real stategy was) then it would have been another classic "GRIECO TOLD YOU SO" moment. OK here was the REAL DEAL...
during this time you had a lot of cunt ass republicans who were trying to "ride the fence" in case of election shit so they started dropping loyalty to Bush because of this inherent "gutlessness". SO Bush said "Fuck em'." Harriet Myers was the loyal gimp who helped pick John Roberts. So Bush appointed her, knowing full well she had liberal shit in her closet that would infuriate the conservative talk show hosts and make the republicans bitch about how "weak and stupid Bush is" and how he needed to get a hard ass judge etc. Then Bush dropped the bomb...
Myers dropped out.He nominated Alito, and now all the fuckers who wouldn't have backed Bush on anything at the time had ran their mouths about appointing a ultra conservative had no choice but to rally behind Bush. The whole thing was a Bush scam. George Bush outsmarted everyone again, because a man of conviction is not afraid to be hated.

2)Kanye "dr zaius" West & friends...
Fuck this jungle music creating idiot. I already posted shitloads of anti Kanye shit during the Katrina posts. Why is it that every "allegedly" educated black "so called" man has to constantly rant about how white people are fucking them and to be "intellegent" you have to be all into "black owned businesses" and "black intersts" and have the constant bullshit theme that all black people are "suffering?" FUCK YOU ALL!!! OK here's the first fucking fact. I'm white . I never owned a slave. I've experienced so much negativity from blacks , dealing with the crime and the car jackings and home invasions and drug peddling and outright disrespect for everything in my community . I never did FUCKING SHIT to a black man or woman. I raise a black man's child. I put up with ignorance everywhere I go. Maybe you black folks who talk this shit need to shut the fuck up a minute and listen. YOU WHOLE GOD DAMMED CULTURAL ATTITUDE, FROM GLORIFYING SINGLE MOTHERHOOD AND DENYING THE NEED FOR A FATHER TO PORTRAYING DRUG DEALING AS A NESSESARY AND NORMAL ACCEPTED THING TO DO TO MAKE IT IS DESTROYING OUR SOCIETY AND OUR COUNTRY. I'm the one in the fucking "struggle" you idiots are crying about. The struggle to raise kids and tell them when a piece of shit like 50 cent brags about making it by selling drugs or snoop dog has his own "pimp ride" remote control car (I'm not making this up ,they have snoop dog toys now) that these are not people to model themselves after. Why would a kid need a "pimp car?" . Isn't a pimp a fucking BAD THING? I mean shit I have people all the time ask me "what about your kids" when they found out I work in the adult business , yet they let their kids idolize pimps and drug dealers and dress like them. The best thing of all , my favorite story , is after the actual body counts were taken, they found out just as many white and middle classed people were killed by katrina. Yet Kanye didn't have shit to say about the facts, which by the way, were published in a LIBERAL newspaper , the LA Times. I guess Bush doesn't care about white people now.

3) spongebob squarepants and the other homo pushing agenda toys and crap on "nick" ...
I went to the toy store and there it is- RIPPED PANTS SPONGEBOB- and then SHOWERING SPONGEBOB . What is the point of making a toy that has an ass ripped out of some pants and a blushing cartoon character? Or what about a character in the shower saying " I'm a dirty boy!" Think I'm just reading into it too much? Think about this- what about a naked ken or barbie being sold in a "shower" outfit? What would you think of a ken doll with the ass ripped out of his pants? Maybe they should split the pants on the Beyonce doll.The point is , boys thinking about assless pants and guys in the shower, why can't spongebob just ride a bike or play ball or something other than always centering on nudity and private parts? WATCH THE SHOW. Ever see the episode where spongebob and patrick run away and talk about "not having to shave their legs?" Tell me two so called "male" characters talking about leg shaving isn't some intro into the gay world.Or fuck it , keep telling yourself this shit is just kid's entertainment and wonder why your son is wearing mom's underwear later on. Al this " I knew I was gay when" bullshit comes from the brainwashing many people got as a kid. The bratz dolls (slutz) now have thongs. I saw a little mexican girl about 10 dressed in the SAME FUCKING OUTFIT as a bratz doll on the shelf she was standing next to. And why do these fucking mexican women here dress their girls like street whores at 9 years old? These girls have on makeup and tight shit and low cut shirts and miniskirts. Plus you can smell the perfume on them 100 feet away. Anyway back to the subject at hand. Actually WATCH the kids shows. Every live actor show has to do with the "black guy" being the smart or sensitive best frend of the white girl. The only white male characters that are "good guys" in the shows( usually oriented towards some high school or junior high theme) are either gay or effeminate or have huge character flaws to make up for them being portrayed as "good" characters. I watched 30 seconds of "DEGRASSI JUNIOR HIGH". Here's the set up. Two white boys and one white girl are unloading band equiptment from a van. Suddenly the boy leans down ,kisses the other boy on the mouth and he says " What's that for?" the guy who just kissed him says in his most effeminate voice" For being so darn cute" . YOUR FUCKING TAX DOLLARS PAY FOR THIS SHOW, IT'S ON PUBLIC TELEVISON AND IN MANY SCHOOLS IS REQUIRED VEIWING FOR SOCIOLOGY CLASSES.If there was someone pushing any "christian" doctrine on this show it would have been done for a long time ago. All these fucking shows like "Ed, Ed and Eddy" and one of my hidden agenda favorites "Fairy oddparents" - OK get this . Here are two lines from fairy oddparents that maybe you can explain. The father and son(timmy)are having a discussion about why Timmy can't stay up at night. Timmy says "I want to stay up" dad says " son you think you can't "stay up" now wait until you're my age and your body betrays you in other ways" JUST WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN? He tells him if you think you can't "stay up" It's a joke reffering to dad's inability to "get up" it's a sexual refference but to actually get this you have to HEAR and SEE the actual dialoge and the body language of the characters to understand the innuendo. But here is a more obvious gay reference in "fairy oddparents" - Timmy's teacher is coming to visit for dinner. Mom and dad open the door to let him in. Dad looks the male teacher up and down, and in his head ( his mouth doesn't move and the statement is what he is thinking when he sees the male teacher) "That face, that figure , HE"S GORGEOUS!!!" Now WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE POINT OF THAT LINE IN THE CARTOON? there was no punchline. The script continued on a whole other subject at this point . Why would dad think another man , a humped over , hornrimmed glasses wearing nerd school teacher was "gorgeous?" The father on the show is constantly making stupid innuendos and gay references. I guess it's all in the tradition of making all white male father characters on television effeminate , deeply flawed or gay. Anyway watch this garbage and you'll understand. Then there is the stupid "feisty fat ass black girl" characters like "raven" on disney. These are all shows that have a definite agenda. If it's not promoting gay or hatred of white males it's all about mindless dancing. Watch the little kids shows. Constantly "let's dance" "let's dance" "let's dance" . All the hell they want kids to do is dance around like the same dancing idiots in all the under developed jungle countries. Dancing is primitive and mindless and a sexual ritual. Look at any country that has a lot of dancing. They're fucking poor. Africa, Mexico, most of South America, hell when they quit dancing so much in europe (notice Ireland was the last to give up folk dancing in europe thus the last civilized country) thay finally became civilized. Dancing KEEPS COUNTRIES POOR AND IGNORANT. And the more they can start young giving commands to "dance" to young children and "conform" to the release of mindless dancing the better and easier it is to brainwash them with their other "degrassi" and "sesame street" shit. They teach NOTHING. Anyone can hop around. It takes a mind to learn.
THis is just a primer.
Think about it all , and have a great day...

2006-01-16T14:52:00.000-09:00

its's not over yet...

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"In my experience, those who do not like you fall into 2 categories - the stupid and the envious."

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I'm not dead...yet...

2005-09-28T18:59:00.000-08:00

I've been gone, after posting a lot of shit. I'm tired. Burned out. Not so much from blogging but my life or maybe call it a "lifestyle" whatever you want to call it. We did the "cat funeral" thing. Got another kitten. She seems a little calmer than the last one. Watched the whole first season of "Lost" , just in time to catch the new season. You know an anagram of my name is " a nice n' hot orgy?" Oh well. Another story. When I was a kid, my dad constantly brought me home stuff from europe and asia. We had reel to reel tape recorders, a super 8 camera , all kinds of cool shit that no one else had , even if we didn't have a lot of money back then. Dad used to get me cool toys from the phillippines , robots made in Japan that are probably worth a lot of money now. I still have almost all of my toys from when I was a kid. I took care of my toys, inventoried them every day I played with them and when I go to my mom's and open the boxes they're in there's still little pieces of cardboard with lists I made as a kid of all my toys. My dad carved me a wooden rifle in about 1976. Still got it today. I remember one of my favorite things dad brought home from overseas was a short wave radio. Now if you've never listened to short wave radio, there's this big mystery that's still going on today. There are stations on short wave that are nothing but increments of numbers being recited by some woman's voice all the time. A lot of them are in Spanish. People used to theorise that it was some kind of secret code. Freaky shit. I'm not making this up, there are hundreds of articles about it on the internet. I read some articles recently and seems there are still not a lot of answers as to where these transmissions come from. When I watched the show "Lost" recently, it reminded me of those short wave transmissions I used to listen to as a kid. There's this French woman who lives on the island reciting numbers over and over along with a distress call. I used to imagine all kinds of creepy shit about those numbers people as a kid, and I bet whoever wrote this show must have listened to short wave radio as a child as well. Anyway if you've never heard of this stuff, I think there's an NPR article (I hate NPR but oh well gotta use them for somthing) about this with a recording of some of the counting. Well that's today's post, gotta go and be busy. Take care, think about things and have a great day...

OK one of our cats is dead...

2005-09-22T18:37:00.000-08:00

Probably hit by the drug traffic. Just let her out to run around and when we got back from the store she was dead in the street. We had her a short time but the kids loved her. We buried her in the back yard. Held hands and sent her to "cat heaven". Oh well. Nothing I can do now. Usually when we let the cats out of the house they just hang on the porch. She must have taken a walk across the street and gotten hit. We live on a corner street in a cul-de-sac. The only place anyone is coming and going about now is the dope dealer's house. Either people are pulling up or he's constantly switching cars and driving like a bat out of hell and coming back every 5 to 20 minutes. The "old grandma" cat is still alive. Hope she stays that way. I fucking hate kids having to experience death of any kind. But it happens. You guys take care.

Tough Talk...

2005-09-22T15:24:00.000-08:00

There'a a lot of "tough talk" in this world. I have been through that shit since I was a little kid getting bullied by 4 kids on the playground. As I learned to fight back no matter what the odds, and as I started winning, the bullies started crying louder and louder until I, the "outnumbered inferior" was labeled the "bully". I remember getting kicked out of public school after beating down 2 guys who were more than twice my size with a fiberglass top desk. These guys attacked me first, and thought making a joke out of me in class while the teacher was out would be fun. As I was yelling at the fucking idiots that run the school, telling the principal I'll fucking kill him if he doesn't get the fuck out of my face, the two bullies sat there,nursing their wounds perfectly calm looking like two model football players. Looking at me as if I had an "anger management" problem. Every adult and student suddenly branded me as a "psycho", simply because I didn't allow two cunt motherfucker spoiled brat kids beat me down and make a joke out of me. I still ended up being a joke, because I was kicked out of school and branded a "troubled kid with a violence problem". I went to private school for the rest of the year, then was allowed back for my senior year at the old school. The guys I had beaten had graduated. One of them became a bully cop. The other became a town drunk. I fucking left the whole shithole behind and went out on my own to be in the adult business. I'm never invited to the class reunion, mostly because I know the guy who plans them is actually gay because he used to live with a stripper who worked for me who always talked about her" fat gay roomate". One day he came in, looking like a poor Rosie O' Donell impersonator. They both lived in the next state, and the dancer he lived with drove an hour and a half just to work for me. I guess he wants to live a "seperate life" from his gay persona. So that's all right with me. I don't want to see any of those losers anyway. The point is, he was another person who was popular in school who started shit on me. This guy used to talk shit about my mom dropping me off in a mercedes. My dad had just started making money then , we weren't poor anymore and he was proud of the car.As kids we were used to walking everywhere when we lived in the inner city, and we didn't have cars. When we moved to what I call the "sticks", all the kids had new cars at 15 years old. Except me. My mom dropped my brother off at Jr. High first and he was a spoiled brat so he always got to sit in the front seat. So when I would get dropped off at high school (which was a block over) I would get out of the back of the mercedes every day. Kids used to act like I was playing like I had a "chauffer" and I was weird because I'd always sit in the back seat. This fat gay guy was the ring leader of that shit. Funny when I made fun of his fat gay ass years later walking into my strip club I'm a "bully" and a "homophobic asshole". Same thing with another situation. The piece of shit who helped cost me my strip club and married some piece of shit crack whore I used to support finally got fucked over and divorced. These fucking idiots called my home screaming at me and blaming me for all their marital problems a couple of years ago. I haven't had a fucking thing to do with either of these junkies the whole time. I'm blamed for her drug addiction when I'm 100 percent drug free and I kicked her out of my life for bringing drugs around me in the first place. SO when she ended up getting knocked up by another guy and leaving this idiot I happen to say somthing to the effect of " well I guess I wasn't the reason for all their problems". And again I'm called a "bully". Funny when they were shitting on me everyone looked on the "bright side" of the situation. And when I got my first divorce they were gloating and making jokes about hosting my ex wife's "divorce party" at my old club. Yet I helped both of these idiots on many occasions and never once backstabbed or fucked them over. And back then, folks took up for their gloating and bad behavior when I was having personal problems. But I say one fucking word and I'm a "bully". It all boils down to one big popularity contest. People know I'm still going to get things done and go about my business no matter what motherfuckers try to shut me down, so they feel I'm in effect "stronger" than these other types and therfore never a "victim". Which to a degree is true. But sometimes I tire of always being the "bigger man". I have seen a lot of people talk shit about how "bad" or "tough" they are, and a guy like me shuts them down because I know what it feels like to lose. Therfore I will fight harder and smarter than the other types because everything I got was hard earned. I know what it's like to have nothing, or to have no friends and be on your own, or own a business that's like your fucking family and have it snatched from you. Then your "family" turns on you and you gotta re build. There is very little loyalty in this world. I am so tired of fucking assholes with personalities on loan from "the man show" who have nothing to talk about but " how about that game " bullshit. The world is full of these "nobody can take my ass" motherfuckers who are secure in their stupid ass life where there wife tells them what they want to hear, they go out with "the guys" and watch sports and try to act the part of a "man". These are the same motherfuckers whose wives are fucking everyone at the office. There are two types of people. 1) people who are clueless and don't give a fuck 2) people who give a damn and know better. For example, the same motherfuker that made fun of me because my first wife left me was cluess about his own whore. I always assume nothing in life is perfect, and there is no assurance that things will always be the same. Yet these motherfuckers who are like " That shit won't happen to me, you're weak and stupid , I CONTROL MY FUCKING LIFE " are the ones who take the biggest fall, and get all the sympathy. Like "Oh poor Jeff, they seemed like the perfect couple, I feel so bad for him" but a guy like me who knows shit can go either way is said " Oh well man, you should have known that shit, you're an idiot". Yet guys like me do know the possiblities, and don't think we got life "all sewed up". Don't get me wrong, I got balls and self confidence and I know I'm the fucking best. But it still doesn't mean people in my life can't be brought in by other liars and fucks who are less than myself. FOR EXAMPLE:These fucks who would just assume try and fuck my wife behind my back while they got their so called "perfectly under control" wife situation at home are never blamed for their assholish behavior. It's like "It's not his fault , your wife must be giving him signals" Oh of course, because this guy is a "winner" and "has it all under control". THIS TYPE OF GUY IS JUST LYING TO HIMSELF. So let's say "Jeff" get's caught cheating, and they split up, and two years later a guy like me starts dating his ex wife. All the "friends of Jeff" would say " Oh but they still love each other etc. and you need to accept that" and any move Jeff would make on his wife while she's seeing someone else is "fair game" . These types are constantly enabled by stupid women and ass kissers. Yet the same "jeff" when he's being sneaky and trying to fuck someone else's wife, is considered a "great guy". Sometimes it isn't easy being a real man who pays attention to how life works. You're expected to play by the rules. And if you ever "get out of line" the whole world is your enemy. Now think about that one, and figure it all out...

Check out this link...

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This is a link to a link... a site that has a short documentary called "pallywood" about how they stage all the PLO bullshit on the news. It shows behind the scenes shit from stuff they put on 60 minutes. Most of the propoganda comes from French television and other liberal sources. Anyway after this post I'm taking a break from the "I hate black culture" argument. The one guy who made sense is a non-slave descendant black guy who isn't into hip hop culture so he's not part of the problem. The problem is the "entitled" folks we have here. If any of you people think the things I speak of that go on here aren't possible, just look at the LA riots or the hurricane looting to get an example of the day to day mentality of the folks who cause my trouble. DO you actually think those people just took to looting and killing and raping each other just because of the situation at hand? Those kind of belief systems are ingrained in a group of folks a lot longer than the week of the hurricane. The "worst" in some folks that's brought out is worse in some groups than others. Just like an open door of oppourtunity invites a thief. Now how many of you folks would rape women just because there was a crisis? No people , these are people taking advantage of a chance to do what was already in their hearts to start with. How many decent folks do you know who'd rape a female seeking refuge from a major disaster? Where were the rapes in the world trade center rubble? What about in the Florida hurricanes last season, where the population was predomanatly white? No rapes, no stealing nike's. It's all about where your values are. And hip hop says to take advantage of the weak. And take what's yours. And get the best jewelry, clothes and cars you can. Same reason all those 2000 dollar red cross /fema debit cards turned up at expensive stores selling "rich folks" stuff. I don't go out buying shit I can't afford while I got a food stamp card. Three of my neighbors , all single black moms have a Lexus. And a food stamp card. One owns a hair salon and cheats on taxes. SHe was arguing with the girl at Kroger's about why she cannot get Boone's Farm wine on a food stamp card. Good thing she also had "families first" free money on her card. She was bitching because she had to use her government CASH entiltlement she also gets on her EBT (food stamp) card to buy alcohol and cigarrettes. She was like " Dis is bullshit I got to use MY MONEY for these wine and cigarettes" She was wearing nice clothes , had about 4 diamond rings on and has an 04 lexus. The money she gets is not really "her money" but money she gets from the government for having a child that has a deadbeat dad. The state pays the child support for him. I never realized she was my neighbor until she threw that fit in the Kroger's line. I knew she looked familiar. She pulled in right in front of me 2 houses down. Then I started paying attention to all the other folks who live here and found out how everyone gets 500 bucks a month in free groceries. I've told this story before, and I'll keep telling it until someone fucking stops this type of abuse of MY tax dollars. SO think about that one...

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The crazy thing is...

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Look at what I do. What other blog can you go to, insult the owner, and get back huge replies and valid arguments back? I really believe in the things I put out here.

Another reply I had to post...

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Here's the next comment from "sacha" ...

i'm sorry we got off to a bad start - I just want to get in your pants, couldn't you see?
Sacha | 09.18.05 - 4:10 am | #

and HERE is my reply...

Now THAT'S creative sarcasm. And I can respect that more than your other method. You actually pulled off a better reply than the old "cocksucker" bullshit. The only thing that weakens any argument or comeback you have is you're still not putting out anything on your end. You have no site of your own or give any form of an identity. If I go after Kanye West , for example, I give reasons why and identify myself. If I call someone a "cocksucker" in the form of an insult, you know who you're dealing with. Yet people come on here , state they're "German" or "Australian" and then try to tell me they don't agree with me. Well fine. In America you're allowed to disagree with all straight white men, George Bush, any condservative or anyone who's against hollywood assholes. You're free to express yourself as long as you're not being "racist"(saying anything that may hit home , demand accountability or demand social responsibility for any menber of a minority, primarily black males) , "gay bashing" (speaking your mind by pointing out improper behavior or improper attitudes of someone who chooses to fuck their own sex) or "religeous" (other than Islam, because that would be a form of racism because they've whined they way into the pollitically correct force field). The thing that really pisses me off, is if I were gay, or black , or a bleeding heart liberal, anyone who didn't agree with me could be looked down on as "mean", "homphobic" or "racist" and I would be seen as a constant victim. Because I stand on my own and speak my mind against ALL injustices against MY People ( those who WORK HARD and want to be left in CONTROL of a country they are BUILDING , not DESTROYING or RAPING or LOOTING ) I have to catch hell form idiots who really don't ever THINK about the fact I MAY JUST HAVE A POINT. They are so brainwashed that the moment they hear a so called "racist" or "homphobic" etc. statement they shut out all logic. I HAVE to CONSTANTLY HEAR IN ALL MEDIA, AND IN ALL FORMS OF ENTERTAINMENT FROM CHILDREN'S CARTOONS ON DOWN TO THE MAN WALKING DOWN THE STREET WHO"S BRAINWASHED AND WEAK MINDED, the opinion of "THE OTHER SIDE". I have no choice but to have it forced on me every day. Yet I HAVE A VIEW OF LIFE AS I SEE IT HERE, NOT CLOUDED BY DRUGS OR ALCOHOL OR HATE, and I am expected to shut up and leave it alone. I would think, for example ,a man who believes in a religeon that says I as a caucasian man, was created by a black scientist, and I am responsible for the enslaving of an entire race, is a man who has a mental problem. But Oh, wait a minute... HE'S BLACK, so then totally justified in his hatred of all white people ( the ones who buy his pathtic albums) . And if a CHRISTIAN were to run down Bill Clinton , for example, none of his opinion would be listened to because it would be attributed to his "religeous" insanity. Yet a BLACK MAN who writes music about ENTITLEMENT OF HIS RACE and says that all people from MY RACE are souless robots created by his people gets a voice solely because of skin color. Maybe you don't experience this shit where you come from. Maybe they HATE MACHINE isn't going on where you live, but here there is hate and resentment towards me simply because a genration of black people have been fed lies and hate towards the white man and have been using us for a stepping stone to blame us for ever ill in their lives. I READ RAP LYRICS. I don't just listen to the "BEAT". I read food labels , I PAY ATTENTION to my environment. I pick up on things many of the "sleepers" just ignore or shut out with distractions like drugs. So fine , talk shit. Stay alseep.

If you folks don't ever step off what you're told or how you THINK it is, then there is no hope for you. I thought a lot differnetly as well years ago. But I PAYED ATTENTION and learned for myself. Think about that.